Losing 100

Doing The Do

2012-01-29T18:10:00.000-08:00

This week has been a bit up and down. I'd tried to fool myself into thinking that i could still have a drink now and then, as long as it wasn't my two problem drinks [Wild Turkey or Black Jim Beam], but gaining weight this week bought that little ditty back to reality. The drinking itself wasn't the big deal, but the nibbling i did afterwards was. And i was nibbling late at night, right before bed. So obviously all booze is off the menu [except for special occasions/events like weddings, work parties etc. Not just 'It's Saturday and it's hot. Let's get a few?"] Because getting healthy is much, much more important than enjoying a drink on a warm summers afternoon!

So i gained a kilo this week. And that put a kink in my plans to be under 170kg by Feb 14. I have to lose 5.3kg [11.6lb] in two weeks to reach that goal. I wont take my eyes off that goal but i realise that's a lot, so i won't be gutted if i don't reach it.

I tried Zumba yesterday on the Wii. Rose was going to do it with me, but quit 4 minutes in, leaving me to do the program myself lol I didn't like it much so i wont do it again. But the same person i borrowed the game off showed me the DVDs on Saturday. And although that was a big more vigorous, i'd rather do them. So i'll see if i can find them cheap on eBay :o)

Then, because the Zumba programme i chose was only 20 minutes, i bought the mini trampoline inside and done 10 mins of jogging on Wii fit plus. And man, that nearly killed me!! Being 400lbs and jogging do NOT mix! lol But you know what? The trampoline made it easy on my joints so i'll do it again :o)

And Jason would like to get fit with me. He thinks that by wearing my hair bands as sweat bands, he at least LOOKS the part. I took this pic and he made me promise that i wouldn't put it on face book. But he didn't say anything about not putting it here >:o)

This week with The Bod Squad, instead of meeting at my place, we had a bring and share picnic in the park - bringing a healthy recipe. 3 of us turned up, including a newbie. I made a recipe from a Woman's Weekly low fat cooking book that was meant to be bacon & cheese bread wedges. But i added other stuff too, like grated veges.[Zucchini, carrot, mushroom & tomato - just a handful] And oh my goodness it was yummy!!! I'll make it again for sure, but only for shared dinner events, coz i'd just eat the whole thing myself if given the chance!

I'd use wholemeal flour too :o)

I have cut my energy drinks down to 1 a day. And leaving it for as long as possible before i have one. I know none is ideal, but baby steps.

So that's it for this week. I hope everyone Else's journey is going well. I haven't had much blogging time of late. I miss my online peeps <3

Being Great

2012-01-20T23:34:00.000-08:00

On Tuesday i had a bit of a blow out and ate more than i should with no exercise. I sat on the couch and started with the one whole self loathing thing that us fatties do. But it only lasted a little while. I decided i wasn't going there, got up and brushed my teeth so i couldn't eat any more even it i was tempted, and i did the exercise i wasn't planning to do. That bought my calorie intake down to almost within range. I felt so proud of myself and liberated after that. Like i'd beaten the first boss on a video game :oD

I've been working on the energy drinks. The day before yesterday, i had none, yesterday i had one and today i've had one. I'll eventually wean myself off them.

The meeting yesterday was good. There were 5 people, including me. We planned a bring & share picnic for next week. Bringing our healthiest dish [and the recipe], and meet at a fairly private and shady park. I'm looking forward to that!

For the meetings, i prepare healthy snacks. When everyone had gone today, Daniel helped himself to the leftovers - enjoying in particular the tzatziki dip - not letting me take it away lol

He's so cute!

This week i lost 600gms [1.3lbs], bringing my total loss this year to 7.4 kilos [16.3lbs] and i'm happy with that! :o). Here is a pic of 1 pound of fat. Kinda puts the little losses into perspective huh?

Strides

2012-01-12T16:37:00.000-08:00

This week was hard. I was going to do a mid-week blog post but Wednesday was a bit hectic.

Aunty Flo was here this week. and she just wouldn't leave! I think the sudden habit changes put a bit of stress on the body. I didn't exercise on Tues or Wed. Wed was an extremely shitty day! Daniel has 4 teeth coming through at once and he's awful to live with. Rose was being a right madam, and i swear Jason was trying to be the worlds most useless boy! Every time i asked him to do something, he either did it wrong or did something else completely. I really wanted a bourbon. But i didn't have one [Yay!]

Thursday i woke up with a headache that was trying real hard to turn into a migraine. So i had to stay in my 'quiet place' till it passed. Daniel was still sore so that place was up the back yard.

I've been struggling to keep my calories up to 2000 [it's been around 1400-1600]. I've been eating a lot of veges and they aren't very calorie intensive. I've been trying to keep my meals to around 500 cals, leaving 500 for snacks. But that's not as easy as i thought. I asked about it at Calorie King and someone suggested replacing my skim/low fat dairy with full fat. I might do that.

I'm going to have to address my energy drinks soon. Now that I'm eating heaps of veges, i don't really need the energy from the drinks. I think I'm actually getting headaches from them now. They are a habit i need to shake off. I'll work on it in the coming week

Other than all that, the week has been great :o)

I'm feeling a lot better within myself. More energy and motivation to do every day stuff that i 'couldn't' do before. I'm quicker to tidy up as opposed to putting it off etc. Feeling a lot less puffed and feeling happier. John said that alcohol may have been interfering with my meds. I think he might be right.

I had the second group meeting of "The Bod Squad" - the weight loss support group & 2 people came. It was nice and motivated me even more! I started a page on FaceBook for it because people out of town want to be part of it too.

I lost 2.8 kilos [6.1lbs] this week. Woot! Life is good :o)

Keep Calm & Carry On

2012-01-07T00:57:00.000-08:00

The first meeting of the slimmers support group was today [Named by the people as Mission Slimpossible].
I cleaned the house, went out and spent $50 on nice, healthy nibbles, And John took the boys out to keep them out of the way.

Then no one came. Not one person. I felt a bit deflated as i have put some effort into this. But i didn't feel defeated. I'll advertise this coming week, in the newspaper and on the community news segment on local radio
Gives me some time to add some extra ideas & maybe some structure too.
So me & the kids ate the nibbles & drank water from our special [only get them out for guests] water glasses.

I lost 3 kilos this week [6.6lbs] & i earned every bit of it! I've eaten really well, except one night when i stole some of the kids' potato chips and mixed lollies while watching the Smurfs [trying to mask the boredom].
And i've exercised 6/7 days. I was going to add up calories/exercise time etc totals but i can't be bothered.

So onto the next week :o)

Pumping

2012-01-02T18:56:00.000-08:00

The last few days have been great. I got Just Dance 3 [and Just Dance 2 add on songs] for Christmas and it has some awesome songs on it. But i've yet to find a song on it that i'm co-ordinated enough to dance to! Jason was sitting on the couch saying, "Fail!" every time i got a low score [every song]. Needless to say, i got the poops, chucked the remote at him after my half our and said "You do better then smartass!'..... which he then did - much, much better! *Grumble grumble*
I'll get better with practise. But until then, he's not allowed in the room while i'm doing it lol
It's been really hot here in the last few days. I didn't exercise yesterday because i was waiting for it to cool down. At 9:30pm it was still too hot. I knew today was going to be just as hot, so i got up early and exercised while it was still cool enough.
I don't exercise if it's too hot. It might even be fair to say i'm allergic to excessive sweating. I get this funny rash thing like prickly heat. It's itchy and painful at the same time. I have medication for it, but it's only for when it's there, it's not a preventative. And when it's already there, it takes days to go [over a week without the cream] so i know where my heat thresh hold is.

I've been drinking a lot of water - something i've never really done coz i need flavour and lemon just doesn't cut it for me. But i tried mint leaves in it [just 3-4 leaves]and loved it! It gives it a mild sweet kick.

I've been working on my internal dialogue too, what i tell myself about my body and habits. I think a lot of negative thoughts so i'm trying to correct them. I think that has a big part to play.

I put the posters up around town for the new group today. I can't wait for Saturday, i'm so pumped!

][-][APPY NEW YEAR

2011-12-31T18:52:00.000-08:00

New year, new me. I know, i know, What makes this different to all the other years? Ultimate accountability!
I have looked for ongoing motivation, support and fellowship in the diet community without spending money on programs or special foods.
I fail over and over again because i even though i know what i should do, my lifestyle, peers and family living make it all too inconvenient and i just don't know how to fight against that.
In the last weeks of 2011, i came up with the idea of forming a weight loss support group to learn how to tackle those problems and more. Here is the poster i made up for it...

I will be the head of this group and it will be at my house. I work well when people rely on me as i want to please them. I will/do want to be the example. I can't get any more accountable that this! Even though i'm doing this primarily for selfish reasons, i know there are people out there looking for the same things. The first meeting will be this coming Saturday Jan the 7th and so far there will be 5+ people coming. I'm so excited about it!

I made a FaceBook poll to help decide the group name so i can make up proper posters to leave around....

I personally like Wii Fat, but i can see why that wouldn't work for a few reasons lol [If you'd like to vote as well, just add me on FB :o) ]

On another note, i have started doing Dr Phills Ultimate Weight Loss Solution over the last week. I've had it on CD but don't have a CD player in the bedroom where i can listen to it in peace. Only this week i worked out how to put it on my iPhone!

I tried to weigh myself for the new year but my scales won't weight me. Either i'm over 182kilos [approx 400lbs] or the scales have been effected by John leaving them in his stinking hot shed for 6 months. I really hope its the later! I don't feel that fat :o/ The Christmas season was a bit of a piggy one [but could have been so much worse]. Lots of socialising and convenience foods. This year, i'm going to make up an event calender so i can decide well in advance that i'm going to behave, and how i'm going to do that without feeling like i'm missing out.

I'm not going to do my food diary here, as i find that doing that just encourages me to sit at the computer more. [it's taken me an hour to do this post already, coz i fart around doing other stuff too] so i'm going to add my calories/exercise/water total at the end of each week.

So that's it for now :o)

]V[ERRY CHRISTMAS

2011-12-11T18:54:00.000-08:00

I am not being very commited right now. Think i'll give up any effort [within reason] till Jan 1.
Untill then, Merry Christmas Bloggers :o)

Holy Elephants Batman!

2011-11-29T01:52:00.000-08:00

Still plodding along. Still annoyed at Johnny, but i have decided not to see it as another pitfall, but rather, try to keep up in secret. Like a little stealth mission >:o)
Guess what i learnt today? That an elephant calf weighs 100 kilos - the same as my access weight. Well that's just great. I'm hiding a baby elephant under my skin!

Game On?

2011-11-24T17:05:00.000-08:00

Still plodding along. Forget my food diary. Who's actually reading it anyway?
I've been a bit depressed about the whole thing. John is losing weight somehow. He lives on fat: Party pies, sausage rulls, hot dogs, hot chips, pastries, bread etc.Then on his days off he drinks lots of beer. I worry about his diet coz for a grown, overweight man, it's so bad! He doesn't intentionally exercise either and doesn't even try to lose weight.
I, on the other hand, try to cut out as much crap as possible. I eat salady stuff, mountain bread/wraps, dairy, as much veg as i can fit in. I weight 30 kilos [about 60lbs] more than him, but i have smaller portions [probably still too big]. I don't intentionally exercise a lot, but it's much more than his nothing. I drink bourbon in cans a few times a week,which is really sugary, but the calories are the same as his beer. And i've been on a friggen weight loss Yo-Yo for 4-5 years!
For years now, i've nagged him about his asking for a heart attack. And now he is losing weight for no physically obvious reason.
And what makes it worse is that he is being quite smug about it. Suddenly HE is telling ME what i'm eating wrong!! [while he's stuffing his face with pastry, mind you!]
I should be happy for him for losing weight, but i'm not, i'm resenting the shit out of it!!
I love John. He's an absolutely awesome husband. But i can see this either causing a big wedge, or some awesome competitiveness!

Progress

2011-11-20T17:11:00.000-08:00

A bit has happened since i was here last. I took 'Anonymous' advice and got a referral to see a councilor/therapist about my relationship with food [and booze]. I'm just waiting for him to call with an appointment time.
I've also had bloods taken to check my heart, cholesterol, organ function etc. I haven't heard back from the Doctor about them. Either i'm all good or i'm about to drop dead and he doesn't think there's time to tell me so he's just not bothering to lol
I tried that idea with the Metamucil fibre drink and it did work. It swelled in my stomach nicely, but i didn't put much thought into timing. I had a glass as directed and then served dinner. I just assumed that i would only be able to about half of my dinner, but i ate it all with no problems, and sat there thinking my great idea was actually a stupid one. Then...About 2 minutes after i finished my dinner [about 20 minutes after i had drunk the Metamucil], my stomach gradually ballooned and i had the worst stomach ache!! I thought i was going to have to go and throw up just to relieve the pressure! I was a bit scared :o/ I didn't have to do that, and i stopped feeling uncomfortable after a while, But i better not do that again!
Well...i will do it again, but differently. Obviously i'll have to drink it about half an hour before serving a meal - NOT right before! I'll do that tonight.
I saw a thing on Oprah about how we need to find the reason we overeat before we can conquer it. Well i always thought i didn't have a reason. I just like food/taste/texture and lack self control with eating/drinking.
I tried to do Dr.Phil's 7 keys weight loss program, but i couldn't do it because one of the first steps was identifying the cause. And because i couldn't identify with any 'Reason', i couldn't continue with the program. But i'd like to....
Well when i watched Oprah last week and someone said something about there having to be a cause [I cant remember exactly what was said or who said it, but what they said made sense], it made me want to explore the possibility that maybe i do have an underlying reason that i just haven't wanted to acknowledge thus far.

I haven't weighed in for a few weeks because John has had the car at work - including today. But i really want a number. I might try and bum a lift ;o)

Breakfast: half a light buttered fruit English muffin. A light ham, light cheese and tomato toasted wrap + a skinny coffee, 1 sugar.
Lunch: 4 x corn thins with light peanut butter.

Still Here....

2011-11-11T04:37:00.000-08:00

Yep, still around. Still doing 'ok'. Haven't been too well is all :o/

Getting The Worm

2011-11-08T13:28:00.000-08:00

I couldn't get here yesterday. I was fairly busy and not around the computer. But i was very good. No exercise but friggen awesome eating!

Today i was up early [6:15am] and had a bunch of stuff done before 8am that normally wouldn't get done till around lunchtime. No excuse for not getting exercise in today! Except if i stop i'll go to sleep lol
Breakfast: Bacon & cheese topped bun with low fat marg. Sml hazelnut coffee [forgot to ask for skinny :o/ ]

Salvage

2011-11-06T17:37:00.000-08:00

Been hiding out for the past *thinks about it* 5 days. I haven't really been 'misbehaving', just not exercising. I always feel really guilty when i don't exercise 2 days in a row. But i'm here before it turns into something worse than a sulk.
Yesterday i helped out at a catering thing and got lumbered with a bunch of food to bring home. Mostly salad stuff and salad sandwiches. But now i have to eat it all so i'll be eating salad for weeks! Or until it goes soggy anyway.
I had planned to check out Curves today, but John got called into work so i'll probably go on Wednesday instead. I'm looking forward to it. Oh wait. John's working Wedensday too >:o/ Maybe i'll find a sitter :o)
Breakfast: Light Peanut Butter and banana wrap + a skinny coffee with 1 sugar.
Lunch: Ham, cheese and tomato [white bread] sandwich + a ham and salad wrap.
Dinner: 2x Hoki fish fillets cooked in alfoil with sweet chilli sauce and tomato Mmmmmmm, corn cob, carrot, peas and mashed potato
Snacks: A cupcake & 2x diet energy drinks
Exercise: NIL. I was very busy all day though, moving furniture around and general housework [trying to de-clutter]

Repeat

2011-11-01T17:48:00.000-07:00

I did this big post for today and it didn't save. That has really annoyed me and i'mnot repeating it all!

Breakfast: A meat pie [don't judge me lol]
Lunch: 4x corn thins with low fat marg & vegemite
Dinner:
Snacks: 2x diet energy drinks & a Cadbury Twirl
Exercise: 30 mins Wii Just Dance
Calories:

Stuffs

2011-10-31T15:23:00.000-07:00

Had another crap nights sleep last night. I dunno why, but i'm getting up like every hour for a pee and then it takes a bit to go back to sleep. I'm not drinking anything after dinner [about 7pm] and i'm going to bed between 10-11pm.
I love my sleep and my bed is my fav place to be, ever! And i've always slept like a log. This waking up thing better not become a regular occurrence - i'll just die!

Breakfast: 4 x corn thins with low fat peanut butter. Skinny coffee with 1 sugar.
Lunch: Spinach & Ricotta pasta
Dinner: 2 and a half seedy buns with low fat marg and low fat processed cheese slices.
Snacks: 2x Diet energy drinks
Exercise: None, but i was moving heavy furniture around, does that count? lol

Bit Boring...And Then!

2011-10-30T17:46:00.000-07:00

[don't have a photo for this post, so the goofy face will do lol]

Slept well but felt a bit seedy this morning so breakfast was minuscule to say the least.
Breakfast: 2/3 a bit of wholemeal toast with low fat margarine and vegemite + Sml Skinny [instant] coffee with one sugar. Boring huh?
Exercise: 35 mins Wii Just Dance [session got cut short by the school calling me to tell me Rose was wagging! Daaaaaamit!]
Lunch: A curried egg lettuce wrap [that the dog got most of coz it fall apart while i was eating it] + a 75g bag of low fat chips/crisps.
Snacks: 2x diet energy drinks. Chocolate coated ice cream.

I went to my local slimmers club again today and my week of faking being motivated has earned me a nice loss of 2.5 kilos [5.5lbs]. Me likey very much!

I dunno why there is so much space in my post. I can't make it go away either.

Dog Gone Tired!!

2011-10-30T03:33:00.000-07:00

I had a really lethargic day today. I slept really bad [restless/sleepless] last night, and paid for it all day. I even nearly went to sleep in church! I didn't do any exercise. John even offered to go for a walk with me, and he never does that! I just didn't have it in me. Here's my stats...
I used 2104 out of 2000 calories. 27% of the calories are from fat, 19% from protein, 54% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.
If i had of exercised, those stats would have been great! Phooey to me!

Getting Jiggy With It

2011-10-28T16:32:00.000-07:00

Did the same thing last night. It won't be happening tonight, or the next - i promise! And i realise that by not blogging what i'm doing, i'm not only deceiving you, but myself also. I can't say anything else about it - I'll just move on.
On a positive note, i bought a juicer. I never even thought about making my own juices. But watching the show; "Eat yourself sexy", where they showed how to make juices to help certain physical things, i got interested. I haven't used it yet because i want to talk to some friends who have done/do the juice thing to get some good combinations.

Breakfast: 2x wholemeal toast with low fat marg, tomato & low fat cheese.
Lunch: 4 x corn thins with low fat ham, low fat ricotta cheese, low fat processed cheese slices, & tomato.
Banana smoothie with skim milk, low fat passionfruit yogurt & linseed meal.
Exercise: 45 mins Wii Just Dance
Dinner: Garden salad with egg & grated low fat cheese + 2 x BBQ sausages.
Snacks: 1 kiwifruit with 2-3 tablespoons of low fat passionfruit yogurt. 2x Diet energy drinks.
Calories: 1653 out of 2000. 31% of the calories are from fat, 25% from protein, 44% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.
My fat percentage was at 17% untill i added those 2 sausages and now i'm really annoyed!! It makes me not want to eat another sausage again, ever! >:o/

What's With The Sudden Wrap Influx?

2011-10-27T18:24:00.000-07:00

Last night i had a few Wild Turkeys and then ate 3 wraps [leftover from the canteen yesterday] for dinner [mostly salad]. Gee i was hungry! Then i went to bed without confessing to you 9_9

I decided with breakfast this morning that i would cut it in half. With the meal below, i usualy have 2 toast & 2 eggs. But i thought i'd give half a shot. If i was still hungry afterwards, i could always go back for more...
Breakfast: 1 x Wholemeal toast with low fat margarine, 1 dry fried egg & a small can of baked beans. And it was enough. But i did get hungry sooner for lunch. I foiled that by downing a big drink of water :o)
Exercise: 40 mins Wii Just Dance
Lunch: A toasted wrap with avocado, light ham, light cheese and tomato.

Temptation Afoot

2011-10-26T23:41:00.000-07:00

I spent the day in a kiosk/canteen/tuck shop, selling very yummy food to football players, as part of a fundraising thing for Jason's School. Before i got there i had...
Breakfast: Toasted wrap [Avocado, low fat ham & low fat cheese]
Then i had Lunch there, Another wrap - ham and salad + a coke zero.
There was lots of super yummy stuff there that i could just help myself to. But i didn't.
I was stuffed when i came back home. All that running back and forth, serving people, really took it out of me. I'm so unfit!
The Commando from the Australian Biggest Loser was out at Jasons school today. Well not at the school, but outside the school, filming for the new series as there is a guy out there who got on the season.
I'm spewing that i didn't know and missed out on meeting him!

Day 2 - Not 100% Faking

2011-10-25T17:52:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking..... You know those fibre drinks we can drink to 'Get us going, and keep us going." Like Matamucil? Well that stuff swells up and gets gluggy & if you don't drink it fast enough, you can't drink it! So i was thinking that maybe it would work like those ridiculously expensive diet pills/shakes that do the same thing - expand in your stomach so you feel less hungry. Except this is mega healthy! I think i'm going to give it a go. Not have 3 glasses a day and OD on fibre, but break it down to 2 smaller glasses with lunch and dinner, or just one glass with dinner.
I'll report my findings :o)

Yesterday i found that, even though i ate super healthy and a lot of it, that i wasn't satisfied at all, and after dinner i had to have an ice cream cup and a wrap. John says it's because i'm used to filling up on stodgy food each meal, so i won't feel full without it. That makes sense, so i'll stick it out and hope that changes, rather than giving in and eating stodge at the end of each day just so i can go to bed feeling content with my stomach.
This morning John took me out for breakfast [Coz he's awesome like that]. Here's what i had;
Breakfast: 2 toast melts with Chicken breast, Avocado, pineapple, bacon, melted cheese on 2 bits of white toast + a lge skinny, decaf, hazelnut cappuccino
Exercise: 40 mins Wii Just Dance

Snacks: 2 x cans of diet energy drink

I didn't have any lunch because i knew Pizza Hut wasn't going to be pretty. I didn't 'suffer' though, because breakfast was at 10am and it was heavy. I wasn't starving when we got to Pizza Hut - put it that way.

I'm not putting dinner here coz there's no point.

To be honest, I'm not sure how much i ate. I can tell you that the size of the pizza slices are getting smaller, i'm sure! They were tiny!! As demonstrated....

Here I Go...Again

2011-10-24T16:25:00.000-07:00

Ok, here i go, faking at being motivated.

breakfast: A smoothie made of banana, linseed meal, flaked almonds, low fat passion fruit yogurt & skim milk.
Exercise: 40 mins of Wii Just Dance [that nearly killed me!]
Lunch: 4 x rice thins with light ricotta cheese, lettuce and chicken breast.
Dinner: Fish fillet [cooked in alfoil with herbs and lemon] potato, carrot, peas, corn & broccoli + a skinny cow ice cream.
Snacks: A bowl of chopped up fruit [a banana and 3 kiwifruit] and a mini toasted wrap made from mountain bread, low fat ham, low fat cheese and tomato. Diet energy drink.
Forgot to add this: Calories:1693 out of 2000 calories. 23% of the calories are from fat, 28% from protein, 49% from carbs and 0% from alcohol. [That's an awesome percentage rate!]

My first faking day went really well. In fact it was a kick-ass day!
Tomorrow night the kids and i are going to Pizza Hut for Roses birthday dinner [pre-arranged with other people]. I will be a good faker tomorrow, but tomorrow night i might be naughty. I'll fill up on salad stuff first though, to minimise damage.

From The Corner To The Doorway

2011-10-24T03:36:00.000-07:00

Now i'm even MORE fat! 180.8 kilos fat to be precise. [About 400lbs]. I feel fat too. My chins flap in the wind, if i lift my arm too quickly i risk slapping someone out with my bat wings, My back hurts all the time, and i have had to become a contortionist just to go to the loo! Sigh...What am i going to do with me?!? Where's that Anonymous person who told me off a few months ago? Maybe i need a good dose of what she thinks!

Even though my heart isn't in it at all and my motivation level is beyond low [teetering on self-hatred in fact], i'm starting 'The Plan' as added a few posts down [I haven't done it thus far coz i've been trying to shake a chest infection. But it's 90% cleared now]
Fake it till you make it, right? Let's test that theory.
Even though i still hate the scales, i'm going to go to the local slimmers club next week, a week after starting The Plan, coz i really need a kick start in the motivation area.
At the moment. That's all i have to offer my blog

Those Shadows In The Corner

2011-10-18T19:13:00.000-07:00

Feeling pretty crap with myself at the moment. I weighed in on Monday and i was 178.3 kilos [crap load of lbs].
I haven't even started that plan i drew up. I just feel really yuck and i feel like i've inground my place on the fence and i'm just feeling a bit [ a LOT] depressed. Just hiding in a corner for a bit.

And So On

2011-10-12T18:07:00.000-07:00

Not feeling very motivated. Still dragging out a chesty cough and i'd love to get some physical stuff done. I feel a bit like a pet rock. John is mega sick! He's going to the doctor today and i wouldn't be surprised if they admit him to hospital :o/
I still can't comment on a lot of blogs. I'm thinking maybe it's my settings, but i don't know where to start with fixing that. I'll just have to be a silent reader for now.
Breakfast: Toasted wrap made of a slice of mountain bread, avocado, tomato, light cheese & light ham = 385 cals

Delusions

2011-10-11T03:12:00.000-07:00

Apparently my lack of blogging has caused some delusion for me. I thought i was doing [more than] ok with the eating, but i haven't.
Today i had:
Breakfast: 4 corn thins with light peanut butter = 317 cals
Lunch: Vegetable Cannelloni & a honeycomb muesli bar = 531 cals
Dinner: 2 x small battered fish [packaged], mashed potato/pumpkin, corn cob and peas = 714 cals
Snacks: 2 diet energy drinks, light ham & light cheese on 2 corn thins, a 97% fat free muffin = 483 cals

All together that's 2045 out of 2000 calories. 36% of the calories are from fat, 16% from protein, 48% from carbs and 0% from alcohol. It was pretty much the same stats yesterday and i'm not happy :o/
I can see what i can do better though.

I didn't get to Slimmers yesterday as John had the pram in the car at work.

Hey....

2011-10-09T14:09:00.000-07:00

Ok i'm back. I've finished this procrastinating phase. I missed you guys, aren't i sappy!? :o)
It's been a really full on time away as i indicated in my last post. Since then we've all been sick [again!!] and it's been 2 weeks of school holidays [They went back today].
My food choices have mostly been ok. Some days were absolute blow-outs and exercise has been non-existent of late [mostly due to being sick] but i have since devised a working plan.
As you may or may not know, i have a bit of a problem with clutter/hoarding that i really struggle to keep on top of. I associate it with my weight as well, because the habits go hand in hand. If i feel good about my health habits, i seem to be on top of the clutter. If i don't feel good about my health habits, the clutter almost buries me and everything overwhelms me! So i have to work on them both at the same time.
My food habits mostly revolve around not being about to have a little without having a lot, so i have decided to adopt the 'Cheat day' theory. Not so i can pig out on one day and undo the rest. Just to have a day where i can have something i may have had a hankering for, if i still want it.
Here is my plan. It is stuck to the fridge and i'll print it out in a different colour background every other week so i don't get used to seeing it.
If i can stick to this [and i should coz it's doable], i will succeed in getting healthy.

So far it's working, except the exercise. [I've only been at it a week] I'm still trying to get over the flu and i'm still coughing, congested & living on flu meds.
And the cheat days alternate. Wednesday one week and Thursday the next [Different shopping days]
The 'Junk' doesn't cover the energy drinks or booze. Once i'm used to the food, i'll start on them.
The only problem thus far is, without anything junky, my calories are a bit low. I hope that quoted 2000 daily cals for me isn't set in concrete [like Weight Watchers points]

My local Slimmers club hasn't been on for the last few Mondays [dunno why] but i'm hoping it's open today so i can get an update. I really need it. I feel like mega chin woman at the moment and that can't be good! lol

Here is my food for today:
Breakfast: 4x rice thins with light peanut butter. A mouthful of Jason's skim milk = 317 cals
Lunch: Toasted wrap made up of a tomato & basil wrap, avocado, light ham, light cheese and tomato. About 20 snow peas & a diet energy drink = 419 cals
Dinner: 3 little home made meat pies. Roast potao and carrot, mashed pumpkin, peas & a boiled egg [I know that egg is a bit random lol] = 1035 cals [including the custard]
Snacks: 4 kiwifruits, a banana and some low fat custard.
Exercise: A lot of housework!

I don't know why, but any blog that i could only comment on using Anonomous, now i can't comment on at all!! I write my comment and press the post buton, and my comment just vanishes. Whats with that?!?

Here In Spirit

2011-10-01T07:08:00.000-07:00

I'm not awol, though i really should have been posting. School holidays, My dad has been visiting and a friends teenage son died & we've pretty much been consumed by 'Reality'.
I think about blogging every day and every day i don't, is everyday it's easier NOT to blog. Does that make sense?
I've been doing ok. Some days are better than others with food etc. But i know i have to commit to blogging everyday. And i should weigh in again.
I'll be back.

Cutting Down & Loving It!

2011-09-07T18:15:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i seriously ran out of time. But the food was good.

Today i cut my weetbix down to two, and i'm happy with that. Doing it slowly made all the difference - going from 4 to 2. Only a few weeks ago, 4 weetbix barely satisfied. I'm impressed :o)

So Breakfast was 2x weetbix with skim milk and sultanas = 277 Calories

Done LOTS of washing today! I dunno where it all came from. When i went looking, i'd find another load, and i still haven't striped the beds like i was meaning to do days ago [eewwww]

Lunch: 2x portions of trail mix + 2x corn thins with low fat cheese + a diet energy drink = 643 Calories

Dinner: Curried Sausages, Carrots & rice + a diet energy drink = 634 Calories

I've used 1744 out of 2000 calories. 47% of the calories are from fat [Craaaaap!], 14% from protein, 39% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

Yadda Yadda ETC

2011-09-06T18:39:00.000-07:00

[Dunno why there's all these spaces in my post & i can't fix it. DOH!]
Ye gads i've had a busy day - and it's only 11:40am! Yesterday we signed for some parcels and one wasn't ours. The person wasn't listed in the phone book, so i took the parcel over to them.

Seen as we signed for a parcel, there is one of ours out there somewhere.

So then i took the kids to school, came home and gave DJ his breakfast. Then we went and parked outside our church where a pre-school type music program [Mainly Music] is run on Wed mornings. From there we walked to the supermarket [get that exercise in early!] & at the checkout, i found that i didn't have my bank card. John had it. So i had to walk back to the car, where DJ started crying coz he realised we weren't going to the fun place the other kids were filing into as i put him in the car. Went to Johns work to get my card, back to the supermarket, then around to Mainly Music. DJ is a bit young to join in, but he loves being with the other kids. I don't take him a lot because he just likes to run around pressing buttons on the heaters/fans/speakers, and then when it's morning tea time, he likes to take everyone elses food and throw it lol

Then we came home and i gave him a bottle & put him to bed [yay] and tried to call the Post Office to see where our parcel was. There are new people running the PO and i can't stand them! They have no idea what they are doing and they aren't very friendly! Anyway, i tried to call and the phone would ring for a while, then the guy would pick up the receiver and put it back. This went on for about 15 minutes. I'm guessing they were busy and didn't want to deal with the phone, but it still pissed me off!!!

Then the parcel delivery lady came around with our missing parcel [yay]

Then i got to sit here before doing lots & lots of housework...Yippie!

Breakfast: 3x weetbix with skim milk &Sultanas = 354 Calories

Exercise: 30 min walk: -123 Calories

Snack 2x 50g serves Fruit & Nut trail mix + diet energy drink = 554 [Aawww Crap!]

More coming....

Plodding

2011-09-05T17:58:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my best day ever, since being on this weight loss journey. And no-one even said anything. Poor me lol
This morning i have a bunch of housework to do before working in our local Christian bookshop this arvo. I'm thinking about walking downtown instead of driving. 'Aunty Flo' is visiting and not being nice, So i'll take the easiest exercise option today.
Breakfast: 3 weetbix with skim milk and sultanas = 354 Calories
I didn't walk. I didn't do any exercise :o/
Lunch: Bowl of salad from the bakery, with light ham. A diet energy drink = 151 Calories.
Dinner: Stir fried veges with a chopped up bit of crumbed fish and rice. Another diet energy drink = 662 Calories
Snacks: Sml bit of chocolate mud cake and a mocha coffee. Glass of wine = 805 Calories

I have used 1764 out of 2000 calories. 21% of the calories are from fat, 11% from protein, 57% from carbs and 10% from alcohol.

Going to bed coz i feel icky and bloated :o(

Going In....

2011-09-04T18:26:00.000-07:00

Have to save my chattering for tonight as i have to go mow the lawn. We have half an acre and giant gum trees that are full of nesting magpies - wish me luck lol
Breakfast: 3x weetbix with skim milk & a handful of sultanas. = 354 Calories [Cut one out. I usualy have 4, and i didn't even notice the loss]

I mowed about 1/4 an acre before i run out of petrol and had to come in to look after Daniel. The magpies left me alone. They usually dont coz we feed them, but i thought there was a lot more magpies than years gone by. Didn't know what the 'new magpie protocol' was lol

Lunch: Light ham, light cheese & tomato wrap & a diet energy drink = 285 Calories [Usually have 2 wraps. Dunno yet if i miss the second one of not...

I didn't miss it :o) I did most of the mowing, and i'm soooo claiming that as today's exercise! [- all 411 calories of it]
I went to my local slimmers club [i pop in there randomly when i need numbers] and i'm very happy to report that i weight 175 kilos [about 380lbs]. I honestly thought i may be heavier.

Dinner: Piece of crumbed fish, mashed potato, pumpkin, cob of corn, carrot & peas = 416 Calories
Snack: Diet energy drink & 2 corn thins with light ham & cheese - 236 Calories. They were nice. Thanks for the tip Sandii :o)

I cut my food in half today and after exercise, only spent 880 out of my allotted 2000 Calories. [1291 before exercise]. I don't think that can be good, but i don't want to force myself to eat just for the numbers.
22% of the calories were from fat, 20% from protein, 58% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

*Hag a meringue and sandwich crust while making Jason's lunch. They just kinda fell into my mouth ;o/

Punch In The Face

2011-09-03T20:14:00.000-07:00

I had a commenter on yesterdays post that said some well deserved home truths.How long do i have to play this game before i actually get it right? How long am i going to be the hamster on the exercise wheel [not exercising]?
It was really in my face and i did appreciate it. I'd rather hear it like it really is anyday!
[I tried to give up smoking for years and couldn't. All it took was one of Johns Aunts telling me i was too mentally weak to do it and i stopped right there! That was 12 years ago and i still don't smoke]
But the commenter said that i need to eat better, and i think i eat pretty well. I think the lack of exercise/movement is my biggest downfall.
I post my food on here, not just to be accountable, but in the hope that someone who knows better than me can tell me if i'm doing something wrong with my eating. I know the energy drinks aren't so good, but i'm stuck with them for now.
I'm working on portion sizes too. Just a little at a time so the amount isn't noticeable. And i'm cutting down on meats to add more veges to my plates. That's going well too.
I've decided i'm going to get weighed tomorrow at my old slimmers club, if i remember. I think i need to.

Breakfast: 2x wholemeal toast with light peanut butter and sliced banana [toasted sandwich] Skinny coffee with 1 sugar = 458 Calories.
Lunch: Mince & pasta with ratatouille & a diet energy drink = 560 Calories.
Exercise: 40 mins Just Dance - 336 Calories
Dinner: Chicken breast with satay rice. A bottle of Pink wine and too many hundred & thousand biscuits. Won't even add the calories for that. Let's just say i went a bit over my calorie allowance :o/

Change In Plan

2011-09-02T19:42:00.000-07:00

This week has been soooooo busy! And yet the thing i thought about the most was my non-blogged blog lol
I'm not used to being overly busy - i'm more of a plodder through my days.
The photo blogging was taking up way too much time, and i think that was a big contributor to me not being here too. At the end of the busy day, it was a bit daunting, thinking about sitting here and spending an hour doing the photo thing, when all i wanted to do was go to bed. Y'know?
So i'll go back to just journaling it, but do it as i eat it.
So here goes...
Breakfast: 2x wholemeal toast with light peanut butter and sliced banana [toasted sandwich] +An diet energy drink = 434 calories
Lunch: [leftovers] Mince & pasta with ratatouille + an orange = 510 calories.
Snack: Diet energy drink & a Honeycomb/nut muesli bar = 238 calories.
Exercise: 40 mins Just Dance on Wii -336 calories.
Dinner: 2x wholemeal toast with low fat margarine. Small can of baked beans, [dry] fried mushrooms. Glass of Pink yellowglen wine = 679 Calories.

I forgot to put this: I have used 1525 out of 2000 calories. 16% of the calories are from fat [Woot!!], 18% from protein, 55% from carbs and 10% from alcohol.

While watching Fat Family Diet this week, i learned that 12 squares of chocolate is as bad for you as eating 6 cheeseburgers. And also, when we sweat during exercise, that's the fat burning. Like we are sweating calories. Cool little tidbits there (c:

Just...busy!

2011-08-30T06:26:00.000-07:00

No time today. Too much to do and not enough time to do it. But i've eaten good [except for some doritos] - no exercise. Just busy busy busy.

And Again!

2011-08-28T16:47:00.000-07:00

I'm posting this pic again because it's really significant right now. Really, really significant!
I forgot to mention in my last post that i was going away for a week. I had Facebook access from my phone, but i couldn't blog coz i had no computer. To be honest, i don't think i would have anyway. The past week was one big binge. Why oh why?!?! The only thing i can think of is the bible verse, Romans 7:19-25. It's not preachy, but it describes a dieters nature to a tee! We do what we don't want to do, even though we don't want to do it, because it is part of our nature.
But i've wallowed in my swill and am back, prepared to do my absolute best to make my life and body different! The rule of thumb is: Everything in moderation, right? WRONG! Not for me! A little bit leads to a lot. So i'm going to treat my weaknesses like they are mortal enemies. I don't see any other way.
One day at a time, one meal at a time, i'm back to kick ass!
Here's breaky: Small can of baked beans, 2x small slices of wholemeal toast with light margarine. Large skinny coffee, 1 sugar.

I didn't do any intentional exercise. But i did do yard work, so that kinda counts.

Snack: I was adventurous today and had an orange! I'm not a big fruit eater and i think the last time i ate an orange was about 5+ years ago. And i was surprised that i REALLY liked it! I had an energy drink too.[Recycled photo]
Then for lunch i had 8 spinach & ricotta pastry things. They were tiny [as shown on my hand]. And i had another energy drink.

For dinner we had low fat snags with mashed potato, carrot, corn and peas. [This is my small dinner plate]

Then i had a skinny hazelnut coffee and a couple of caramel crown cookies [what happened to avoiding stuff altogether?!? ].But i don't have a pic :o/

On a plus note, Jason had some pizza he couldn't eat at lunch. [he's home sick - bloody sick! and he BETTER NOT give it to me!!We've had sooooo much illness go through this house during Winter!!]

Pizza [my fav food] & Pepperoni [my fav flavour] and i was just about to bite down on a bit, when i dropped it and asked Rose to take it out for the dog...QUICK!!! I was kinda impressed :o)

I didn't do the CalorieKing thing either, coz i'm drop dead tired and just want to go to bed ASAP. But i might do todays in the morning before starting tomorrows.

Thanks for your encouragement. It means a lot to me XOX

Bit Of Mojo Creeping In...Then Out Again.

2011-08-20T16:28:00.000-07:00

Rushing around a bit today, getting ready for church. So breakfast is only 2x wholemeal toast with light peanut butter. No coffee, i'll just have a swig of milk from the carton on the way out the door ;o)

Lunch was a bowl of mince and pasta with mushrooms, low fat grated cheese and tomato. Plus a low carb energy drink.

Dinner was the leftover bit of pie from the other night. Todays food seems pretty sparse aye? Wait til you see the snacks!!!
Here's where the day went in the crapper...big time! While waiting for lunch to cook [starving from not having enough at breakfast] i ate 7 wafer sticks. It was just too easy! Then after lunch, i settled in to watch a marathon of my new fav TV show, Game Of Thrones. That's when the munchies set in. I had a big bowl of lightly buttered popcorn [with an energy drink]. And hour later John bought me home a bag of peanut M'n'M's. My brain hated eating them, but my taste buds were having a partay! Then after dinner i had two glasses of butterscotch cream with low fat milk [the kids polished off my skim milk. How rude!!]
I didn't do any exercise, because i am slack.
Here's my piggy calories: 3702 out of 2000. 35% of the calories are from fat, 13% from protein, 51% from carbs and 2% from alcohol.
I'm really embarrassed about that. I started putting picks here to help me be sensible & i really need to pull my socks up. SOMEONE tell me off! Please!

Stepping Up

2011-08-19T19:35:00.000-07:00

Yesterday wasn't so hot. But it never is on shopping day. Hopefully today will be much better. I'm at home, doing housewifey stuff [lol]
Here's breakfast: Mushrooms on light buttered wholemeal toast. I cooked the shrooms in enough low fat marg to stop them from sticking to the pan. Low fat Hazelnut coffee [one of those nestle satchel things]

Then i did the exercise. I tried a new game that Anne at Lose2Live recommended, but i am just too un-coordinated! So i gave up and did 30 mins on Just Dance instead :o)
Lunch was a quesadila made up of 2 white wraps, half a small avocado, two tomatos, 3 slices of low fat ham and low fat cheese. Teamed up with a low carb energy drink.

Dinner was corned beef, mashed potato and peas. John made it, so it tasted extra yummy :o)
And here's the snacks: An extra energy drink. Some strawberries and chocolate pieces. I only had two of those bits of chocolate. I gave the rest to Rose. After dinner i had two glasses of butterscotch cream with skim milk

And the damage?
Calories: 2025 out of 2000. 33% of the calories are from fat, 28% from protein, 35% from carbs and 3% from alcohol. Hhhhmmmm.....

Progressive Accountability

2011-08-18T16:36:00.000-07:00

This is so true! And soooo what i needed to hear/read! I've been doing great til about 3pm, then i nibble and then scoff, then stuff, until i go to bed feeling like a stuffed turkey! It's so wrong!
So today i decided to start blogging after breakfast and add to it progressively like Diet Coke Rocks does. So i am accountable for the day right from the start - leaving me with no choice of a binge mid-afternoon! I'll do that till i get out of this funk. And with pictures so you can see my portion sizes.
So...Here's breakfast: 2x wholemeal toast with light peanut butter + A skinny hazelnut coffee with 1 sugar.

Then i did my exercise. First intentional exercise in a month, and man did i pay for my absence!! The song, 'Hurt So Good' by John Cougar Melloncamp comes to mind, coz i still enjoyed it and realised how much i've missed it! I only did 8/10 songs because i was pressed for time.

Here is my highest scoring song for the day...

Then i had to go to the optometrist to get a new script. My eyes are so stuffed! I went to a different optometrist than my previous one, because the last one's guy that served me just assumed i was on welfare by how i looked. And he acted obviously surprised when he learned that i'm not. Gee he pissed me off! So i'll take my business elsewhere, to someone who doesn't have stuck up staff.
So here is my new guy. One look at him and i'm quite happy with my choice ;o)

I met up with Alix and we got some Kebabs. I had one and a half [DJ had the other half]
That wasn't quite enough. So on the way outta town, i got a fillet of fish

Then for dinner, i had this [but on a plate]. Beef pie and mashed potato balls, oven cooked [dry]

And then there were the snacks...... Morning & arfternoon energy drinks. 3 Minties from the bowl on the front counter that i was forced to eat while waiting so long to get my new glasses fitted. Large skinny coffee and 3 drinks kinda like [but not] Baileys.

And here's how all that worked out:

Calories: 2985 out of 2000 calories. 31% of the calories are from fat, 20% from protein, 46% from carbs and 3% from alcohol. [Craaaaaaaaap!! I better get back to adding my food to Calorie King as i eat it too!]

Oops, There It Goes!

2011-08-12T01:27:00.000-07:00

I'm a lot better [again]. Still a bit chesty but overall better. My mojo took a bit of a walk though. I feel really drained and beaten down, but i am putting that down to being sick so much and it's taken it's toll. Over the last few days i've been base jumping with my diet too. At the moment i think i've grown an extra chin, made up solely from carbs!
So tonight i'm chillaxing, looking for my runaway mojo, and contemplating where i go from here. I might fish out all my old health magazines and see if my mojo is in one of them. I know it's around here somewhere.....

Tomorrow i'll start blogging my food diary again. If i remember, i make take pics of my meals too :o)

Crouching Tiger

2011-08-08T18:38:00.000-07:00

T_T

2011-08-03T06:26:00.000-07:00

I haven't been able to log into my blog, what's with that?!?
Well, my flu thing was gone, and then it wasn't. It came back, but the no energy thing and the nightly coughing thing didn't. Now i'm just short of breathe constantly, like i weigh 200 kilos & i only have 20% lung capacity or something. And i can't do anything physical without having a coughing fit. I know it's the flu thing, because other people are complaining of the same symptoms.
I am grumpy and frustrated all the time because i can't do a dam thing about it. And i can't get into the doctor until this Saturday. He better not try and blame my weight or i'll hit the roof!

In the meantime, there's no point in blogging :o/

Moan..grumble..pout..etc

Woot!

2011-07-24T23:56:00.000-07:00

Feeling a LOT better! I didn't post for a few days coz i figured it was pointless. I was sick and not doing anything worth blogging about.
I have tried to exercise but just ended up in massive coughing fits. I know we shouldn't push ourselves when we are sick, but i figured that if i didn't at least make an effort, it would be that much easier to slide back to square one, as we all have sooooo many times, and then taken weeks, if not months, to get going again.
So i tried, and failed [But at least my head was in the game] until today, when i could complete 40 mins of dancing with only one [little] coughing fit. I'm so happy that i persevered and it just boosts my motivation even more!
It's funny, but while i was sick, i just craved veges. I ate other stuff, but while making dinner, i would serve me twice as much veges and half the meat. Like my body was controlling my eyes. I'd see something and think, "Yea! I gotta have me some of that!' In fact, one day i got cranky coz there wasn't enough mushrooms lol
Here's what i ate today:
Breakfast: Baked beans with a toasted wholegrain bun, light margarine.
Lunch: Quesadilla made with mountain bread, light ham, light cheese and tomato. Diet energy drink.
Dinner: A fillet of crumbed fish, mashed potato, peas and corn on the cob. A bowl of cornflakes with skinny milk and sugar.
Snacks: 3 pieces of peppermint chocolate. Diet energy drink.
Exercise: 40 mins Just Dance 2
Calories: 1687 out of 2000. 28% of the calories are from fat, 27% from protein, 46% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

Those baked beans worked a treat for getting that protein up there! :o)

Blah Blahdy Blah

2011-07-18T23:15:00.000-07:00

Same today. Just want to lie down coz being vertical hurts. Cant lie down coz i cough. It all hurts and it all sux. It even hurts to crochet. How sad is that?!?
Although both today and yesterday, i started perking up a bit between 2-3 pm, i hope i feel better tomorrow morning as i have a hot lunch date with my tall, dark & handsome hubby. We don't get those much, so i'll have to be pretty dam sick to give it a miss!
Here's what i ate today:
Breakfast: Oats with skim milk, cinnamon & sultanas.
Lunch: 4 plain wholemeal crackers [they work, ok?], bowl of cornflakes with skim milk and sugar & a skinny coffee.
Dinner: Crumbed chicken breast, mashed spud, pumpkin & peas. Diet energy drink & a choc coated ice cream.
Snacks: Nil
Exercise: Nil
Calories: 1521 out of 2000. [Tried to get it up there!] 23% of the calories are from fat, 18% from protein, 59% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

Blogger is really shitting me at the moment! Not only can i not comment on various blogs, Some of them, i think really need encouragement, and there's no other way to contact them :o/ But today i couldn't even reply to a comment on my OWN blog!! I don't want to move my blog. But i'm thinking about it :o/

Time To Think

2011-07-18T05:13:00.000-07:00

Short one today.

Like no-one saw THIS coming! I've been as sick as a dog all day! The last 24hrs has revolved solely around the bed and couch, [& 10 mins in the shower]...[maybe 5 mins total loo time]. Just have no energy and i'm sore everywhere. Exercise was definitely out of the question! [but i did think about it. Not doing it, just about it] Food has been funny. For Breakfast i had 2x wholemeal toast with low fat peanut butter and banana. My stomach didn't like that. It gurgled and grumbled and felt queezy for hours! So even though i was hungry at Lunch, I only had 4 dry wholemeal crackers and a cup of skinny coffee.

Felt a bit better at Dinner so i had some mince & pasta with masses of veges. Then i had 2x squares of Willy Wonka chocolate [so much for yesterdays post!] and some white chocolate buttons.

I had a diet energy drink somewhere in there too, that did diddly squat!

So my Calorie consumption was 1577 out of 2000. 30% of the calories are from fat, 17% from protein, 53% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

I've been wondering about protein shakes. Is that was meal replacement shakes are? I don't want to do the meal replacement thing. I love food too much - taste, texture, smells etc. But i do need to get my protein levels up. I'm wondering if it would be worthwhile to have a little protein shake with each meal. So i think i'm going to look into it. Protein shakes for health rather than body building.

Dr.Chocolate

2011-07-14T18:29:00.000-07:00

It's becoming apparent that weekends are a pain to blog. Just more going on i guess. I haven't been very well this particular weekend though. I feel a fluey thing coming on :o/
Had a few drinks on Friday night with John, and then we had what can only be described as 'The chocolate incident'. I got a hankering for chocolate biscuits [something i don't normally eat] and cleared out the bickie jar. Then John made the awful mistake of revealing a large stash of family sized chocolate bars. [He works for Nestle and sometimes brings seconds home, but keeps them to himself] Well, then we had this feast of chocolate [that wasn't even very nice!] We were soooo sick! I don't wanna see another bit of chocolate for a long time!!!

Moving onward....

I'm still feeling really good with my efforts. I don't know why my motivation levels are so high, but they are and i'm really enjoying it. And i'm enjoying knowing the scales aren't in the house so i can't be tempted to stand on them.

I wish i could share my motivation, so here's the next best thing. I made it :o)

I'm going to put another Wii on layby, or find a cheap console on eBay. Then i'll set it up on a tele in our bedroom.

At the moment Just Dance is my number one exercise choice and i'm trying to do it daily. I think it's supposed to be a fun game rather than exercise, but it's working for me! Our tele is in the centre of our house and so i'm doing it in front of my family - sweating, stuffing up, and panting etc. Sometimes they'll just sit around and watch! They don't make fun of me, and i won't stop doing it regardless, but i still dont like doing it in front of them. So a cheapo second Wii is in order me thinks.

I've been doing Just Dance 2. It's harder and working different muscles. I'll start alternating days this week. I haven't got back to that trampoline yet. But i will.

I was kinda proud of myself this morning - I didn't start feeling ill till yesterday arvo, and this morning i could feel myself going downhill fast, so i jumped on the Wii while i knew i still had the energy to do it [instead of making excuses] don't know why, but i push myself harder when i feel sick. Today i smashed high scores again. I don't get that lol

Here's what i ate today:

Breakfast: 2x wholemeal toast with banana & low fat peanut butter.

Lunch: Quesidella made up of wholegrain wraps [3, because they tore], low fat ham, low fat cheese, and tomato. Diet energy drink.

Dinner: 2 x seared chicken ceaser wraps from McDonalds [but i only had 1 and a bit] Skinny hazelnut latte.

Snacks: extra diet energy drink and 1 can of black Jim Beam

Exercise: 30 mins Just Dance2

Calories: 2078 out of 2000. 24% of the calories are from fat, 29% from protein, 41% from carbs and 6% from alcohol. [ Aawwww man, i want that 78 calories back!]

Just Cruis'in Along

2011-07-14T02:04:00.000-07:00

Last night i had a can of chunky soup [139 calories] at about 9pm. I was just so hungry and and it seemed silly going to bed without having something hearty to eat.

Today was weird. I really miss Rose But my bestie came home from a holiday so i caught up with her which was awesome. I'm finding being alone with Jason all the time a bit awkward. Rose has always been a buffer of sorts between us. Jason was always my 'baby' [before DJ moved in] but as he's going through puberty, he's changing. And NOT in a cute way! I've noticed a mean, sneaky streak. I don't understand sneakiness, so dealing with it is not something i know much about.

Anyway, todays eating was good again. [the fat percentage was at max acceptability, but hey, it wasn't over! Woot!] I did Just Dance 2 today, which i find harder [coordination wise]and most of the songs aren't so great. But i need variety, so it was good.

Here's what i ate:

Brunch: Mince & pasta with mushroom and capsicum.

Dinner: 2 x small home made chicken Cesar wraps [with everything as low fat as possible] + a glass of Yellowglen Pink wine.

Snacks: Bit of fudge slice [I'd just die without this slice occasionally!], skinny hazelnut latte and a diet energy drink.

Exercise: 30 mins Just Dance 2

Calories: 1796 out of 2000. 30% of the calories are from fat, 23% from protein, 41% from carbs and 6% from alcohol.

Check out my wraps. Gee they were nice! Freshly cooked chicken breast..mmmmmm. I couldn't eat all of it, but it was so yummy!

This is 'My' dinner plate which is actually 3/4 the size of a regular dinner plate. [or a bit bigger than a sandwich plate] So my meals look bigger and my brain gets confused [easy to achieve]

Dirty, Dirty Calories!

2011-07-13T02:34:00.000-07:00

Today was a busy day. Got up early to take Rose into the next town to catch a bus to visit my sister in Albury NSW.
[Rose, Jason and i - Still half asleep!] I'll miss my Rosie!!! :o(

Then i took the boys to Maccas for breaky [I had breakfast before leaving so i wouldn't be starving and scoff everything in sight.]. Then we went to a play centre so the guys could burn off some energy. But Daniel doesn't feel well, so he didn't do much playing.

We were the first ones there, so it was boring for about 10 mins.
Here's the guys on the jumping castle mat thingy. [Jason with his fly open. It's always open. I swear it's an autism thing coz he just doesn't care! lol] DJ didn't think much of the mat.

In the ball pit. Jason, throwing balls at DJ & DJ slowly sinking.

Jason was playing games on the Play Station and DJ wanted a go. I tried to show him how it works, but he figured that if you just hit the tele with the controller, the guy on the screen will move lol

Then we went into the next town [So DJ could have a sleep on the way] to do the grocery shopping. Then home again, where i promptly crashed on the couch for an awesome Nana nap.

I bought some yummy healthy yogurt covered fruity biscuit things and they were so yummy, i devoured the packet! [No1 trait of a fatty!]

They are flat like crackers, and there's 10 in a packet. I had to add the nutrition into Calorie King as they weren't in the system, and they were like 745 calories for the packet :o/ That took me over on my calories, so i guess i have to count them as dinner :o(

I wasn't planning on doing any exercise today, coz i'm usually stuffed after doing everything i do on Wednesdays. But after going over, i figured i better. And by the time i added everything, it was too late to do the dancing. So i dragged the mini trampoline out that the dog sleeps on, and had a go at jumping on it [Apparently 5 minutes jumping on a trampoline is equivalent to 15 mins running] but after 5 minutes, i thought my heart was going pound right outta my chest and i practically fell off!

But even though i only managed 5 minutes, i liked it, and maybe i'll try to build that up by a minute a day :o)

Here's what i ate:

Breakfast: toasted [light] peanut butter and banana sandwich [wholemeal]. 1 bit of buttered raisin toast and a skinny hazelnut latte.

Lunch: seared chicken Cesar wrap + diet energy drink.

Dinner: Forced into hunger by costly calorie disillusion.

Snacks: Said costly calorie disillusion. Skinny coffee + 1 sugar.

Exercise: 5 very long minutes on a mini trampoline.

Calories: 2049 out of 2000. 23% of the calories are from fat, 13% from protein, 64% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

F.A.T

2011-07-12T04:30:00.000-07:00

On this table is 100lbs [45.3kilos] of fat. Hard to believe isn't it? I have over twice that amount of fat swimming around happily under my skin. I dunno where it's all hiding, but it's there. Gross isn't it? But it's soooo easy to put on!
In our family, our staple meats are mince [ground beef] and sausages. I can do lots of different meals with those two meats. Sometimes we have chicken or fish, but it's not a priority on the shopping list.
But because those meats are fatty, i boil sausages to get most of the fat out, before cooking them. Either by baking them in the oven or dry frying them in a pan, where most of the remaining fat comes off.
With mince, i brown it, then drain the fat by putting it in a colander. Below is the fat that came out of tonight's [regular grade] mince...
Mmmmm yummy...NOT!! The top part is all fat [about a cup]. The bottom part is fatty water. That's from 2 kilos [4.4lbs of mince]. In seeing that, it's easy to see how quickly we can gain that fat.
When i add these meats to my food diary, i add them as lean because i do my best to get the fat out. Removing the fat may remove flavour, but i add enough other good stuff* to make my meals scrummy! [*list at bottom]
I always make twice as much mince so i can freeze small portions for lunches too.

So anyway. Today John took our scales to work [i'm freeeeeeeee!!] I made awesome food choices and completed the 40 min dance routine on Just Dance, even though i had a sick, clingy, little man hanging off my legs during half of it. I feel motivated and it feels good. Spending a couple of days meditating/mentally preparing an attack plan really paid off :o)
Here's what i ate:
Breakfast: Oats with skim milk, sultanas and cinnamon. 1 pikelet [no butter]
Lunch: Tuna & egg salad with light mayo. Diet energy drink.
Dinner: Spaghetti bologna's with grated low fat cheese. Diet energy drink.
Snacks: Cup of hot milo.
Exercise: 40 mins Just dance
Calories: 1588 out of 2000 [ 1924 cals before exercise] 26% of the calories are from fat, 27% from protein, 47% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

*I make what i call vege ice blocks. I blend random amounts of water, spinach, chickpeas, oats, lindseed meal, barley soup mix, celery, garlic, or whatever else i have handy. I then pour it into zip lock sandwish bags and freeze them flat. Then when i make mince dishes, i thaw one and add it to the mixture before the tomato based sause. The meal gets stretched out, is more filling & my [non-vege freindly] family are eating a massive variety of nutricious goodies, and have no idea it's even in there, yet they say my mince dishes are the best ever & >:o)

Starting Over....Again.

2011-07-11T04:58:00.000-07:00

Today was my last weigh in for a looooong time. I will take Wombats great idea, and weigh myself at Christmas. So i weighed in today and was quite surprised to find that i'd lost 2 kilos [4.4lbs] exactly, Making me 174.2 kilos [384lbs]. Well, just because i've been sulking, it doesn't mean i've been [overly] naughty. I did today though. Had a last supper of sorts and indulged in some Cinnamon donuts that were absolutely devine!!
Now i will live as healthy as possible, when possible [i'm assuming 95% of the time] and as i said, i will judge my progress with clothing and physical benefits. Seth Rogen lost a bunch of weight without weighing himself, so i know it's doable. I'll work on the motivation and physical progress instead of magic numbers that lie when it suits them. John is going to take our scales to work, where they are going to do a Biggest Loser thing.
Tomorrow [post donut day] i'll start the food diary again.
Back to the clothing subject: I find it really hard to find nice clothes that i actually like, that fit. Even on eBay. I have to wear what fits, and as a size 28-32, that isn't an easy feat! I tend to live in black t-shirts and i'd really like to wear colour - lots of colour - to go with my personality. I wish i could sew. I can't even thread a sewing machine, and it sux! I'd make the BEST clothes!
Anyway, here's the reason i bought this up. Today i went to a Grace Bros sale that was 50%-70% [stocktake sale] off. I can't usually afford to shop in that shop. And when their stuff is on sale, it just makes it like regular, affordable prices anyway.
I found this shirt and fell in love with it [brighter than pic shows] It's retro and funky looking and fits perfectly and it's soft and comfy.......

It was $99 [ridiculous] but 70% off, so i figured it was an awesome bargain! I dunno what 70% off $99 makes the shirt cost, $25? So, i couldn't find a register with anyone on it other than the underwear counter. Jason was sooooo embarrassed being surrounded by bras, and i teased him by touching one where the nipple would go [i'm mean, i know lol] and then he almost had a meltdown. So i paid for the shirt without thinking/listening, and discovered later that i'd actually paid $99 - the shirt was on the wrong rack. It wasn't on special at all. I had put this shirt on and left it on, and been home by 2 hours by the time i found out. Now i feel guilty. We don't have the money to throw $99 away on a shirt, but i do love it a lot and nice shirts are hard to come by in my size. Is it worth it to look/feel pretty? I'm torn. Help me be reasonable, peeps :o)

That Is All.

2011-07-09T21:14:00.000-07:00

Stuffs

2011-07-04T05:46:00.000-07:00

Ok so i'm slacker than even i thought, by not coming back the next day.
I guess i had the mentality of, 'My weigh-ins happen on Monday, so hey, Just do whatever for the rest of the week', Then i weighed myself this morning and i weigh 176.2 kilos [388.5lbs]. I think i actually sabotaged myself to get to a weight i think i deserve to be. When i lost that big number a few weeks ago, i was 173 kilos. And i felt that was a fraudulent number. So i sabotaged it until i felt my weight was where i thought it should be. Does that make sense? I hope so coz that's the best i can explain what's been going on in my head lately!!
I feel fat too. I can feel my chins flap around when i move my head. But my back has been better, much better.
I tried the Just Dance Junior. The songs are more modern, but much more fast paced [and not sung by the original singers]. I couldn't keep up, and couldn't really see myself wanting too. It is designed for kids, by kids. Just not my cuppa tea.
Today i did some yard work that took it out of me! Our 1/2 acre yard needs soooo much stuff done! John & i either lack the know-how or the motivation to deal with it all. But i have decided that i will do what i can [if not for the exercise alone]. Today i moved some wood and piles of crap and even though it was raining and cold, it felt good to do it.
Daniel is getting more and more active. He's walking in small steps now, and it won't be long before he's taking lots of steps. I really need to get my head around the fact that i need to get fitter and healthier to be able to keep up with him. Parenting isn't very efficient when done from the couch! The sooner i get that through my thick head the better!

Yadda Yadda

2011-06-30T01:15:00.000-07:00

Well i coulda been back here a lot sooner, but i didn't see the point. I see the point now, so i'm here now :o)

I went on a 'bit' of a binge with my old buddy, Jimmy. He's a very bad influence and i made some crappy consumer decisions. He's a constant drawback that pops up randomly. I wish i had the strength to dump him for good, but i keep taking him back...Sigh.

So anyway, after a wayward week, i weighed myself on Monday, and i'd dropped like 6 kilos from where i gained all that flab a few weeks ago! Whats with that? I was as good as gold for a month and gained 4 kilos. I misbehave on and off for 2 weeks and lose 6? Instead of being happy, i was actually rather pissed off! I just can't make that work out in my head- the delays. Maybe the trick is not to weigh myself at all, ever [or maybe every 6 months.]

Then my back went out on Monday and it's been killing ever since! I haven't exercised at all, other than a 30 min walk on Monday. I've been mostly couch bound and eating quick-fix crap Ba humbug! I went out with John for lunch today, At Hogs Breathe Cafe. It was sooooo good!

No food diary today. Just letting you know where i'm at. I did buy Just Dance Junior today for Wii. It has some awesome songs on it and i CAN'T WAIT to have a go at it!

Be back tomorrow....honest :o)

Oops

2011-06-24T07:39:00.000-07:00

Let's just say that today i followed the wrong arrow and tomorrow i will probably wake up and scamper to find the correct arrow.

Teetering

2011-06-23T03:39:00.000-07:00

I didn't get to sleep early last night either. Rose kept me up, trying to get me to play Hanging With Friends in the iPhones. What can i say, i'm a sucker for a pretty face! [One that i made, anyway]
Today was spent mostly cleaning. Boring huh?
Here's what i ate:
Breakfast: Oats with sultanas & skim milk.
Lunch: Egg and lettuce wrap + a diet energy drink.
Dinner: 3 x low fat sausages, baked potato, pumpkin and carrot, with corn on the cob and peas. A skinny cow cookie ice cream sandwich. bottle of Pink wine. [love this stuff. & it's really low in calories - 138cals per bottle. 86cals for the low carb version]
Snacks: Another diet energy drink. A Curly Wurly.
Exercise: 35 mins of Just Dance.
Calories: 2030 out of 2000. 25% of the calories are from fat, 16% from protein, 54% from carbs and 5% from alcohol.

Still over with those calories...I think. With the baked veges, i cook them with olive oil cooking spray. But on CaloriKing, the only option i had was Red Rooster side dishes. So i had to add them as that. But i'm sure i cook them more healthily than Red Rooster! And with our sausages, We boil them before baking them, to get most of the fat out. Works a treat and it still tastes good :o)
Either way. I REALLY have to step up!

Actualy, i just had another look at CalorieKing, and there was a healthier baked option for the spuds. Taking my total to 1960. WOOOT!

Idiot Chicken

2011-06-22T05:32:00.000-07:00

Last night i had an energy drink at dinner time and that was really STOOPID coz i was still awake and feeling restless until 4am this morning!
Oh man, what a day! It's my shopping day today, so i was on the go til 4am. DJ was very good for me all day, despite having a sore red baboon bum. I can't tell you how grateful i was for him behaving, considering how tired i was.
Now it's 10:40pm, i'm completely rooted and going to bed!
Here's what i ate:
Breakfast: 2x grainy toast, buttered, with vegemite.
Lunch: 2 chicken shish kebabs and 2 fruit & nut health bars.
Dinner: Quisadella made up of 2x wholemeal wraps, half an avocado, low fat ham, low fat cheese, baby spinach and tomato.
Snacks: 2x diet energy drinks and a milo.
Exercise: None
Calories: 2449 out of 2000. 39% of the calories are from fat, 29% from protein, 32% from carbs

I made a judgement call with my lunch and apparently chicken on a stick is really calorie intensive. As are the 'health' bars [just fruit, nuts and honey]. All up, my lunch cost over 1000 calories. I better cut back a bit over the next few days and do some great exercise!

Now i'm going to bed ZZZzzzzzzzzzZzzz

Lazy Winter Days

2011-06-21T03:47:00.000-07:00

It snowed here today. I took DJ out in it but he wasn't very impressed. In fact, when he touched it, he complained about it lol [Ok, no snowmen this year]

Daniel also took his first unaided steps today. The one time my camera WASN'T pointed at him and he does something fanmazing! Isn't that always the way! Oh well.
Here's what i ate today:
Breakfast: Oats with skim milk and sutanas
Lunch: Egg and lettuce sandwich [Grainy bread] and a diet energy drink.
Dinner: 3 low fat snags, mashed potato and peas. Another diet energy drink.

Snacks: Cup of tea with skim milk. half a buttered bit of grainy bread with vegemite.
Exercise: Nil. Very lazy today. Even with those energy drinks.

Calories: 1840 out of 2000. 33% of the calories are from fat, 19% from protein, 48% from carbs.

Sorry about the words doing that dumb seporating thing. I dunno who it did that.

Dig Up

2011-06-20T05:36:00.000-07:00

I've spent this week in a bad place. A place of procrastination, sulking and crap circumstances. After weighing myself and feeling deflated, i tried to just keep steady while i got out of the place those @#%$ scales sent me. But the week was after me! I've eaten out a few times this week, and the choices made just didn't go in my favour! Just on Sat night, i went out with friends and ordered chicken schnitzel with PLAIN cooked veges. Well i got veges alright, but everything was lathered in something creamy. We were running late to be somewhere else, so i didn't have time to send it back to the kitchen. I also discovered this week that licorice, something supposedly good for you, is ridiculously high in calories! Also, Walnuts are great for us, converting nut produced Omega vitamins into Omega 3. But 50gms of walnuts [a handful] is nearly 400 calories! ...Sigh....It was a crappy week. But this morning i decided to step on the scale again and start again with a new attitude. After all, it doesn't matter if we fall, what matters is getting back up, right?

Here's what i ate today:
Breakfast: Quisadella made of 2x rye wraps, Low fat ham, tomato & low fat cheese. Cup of tea.
Lunch: 2x 9 seed toast with a banana. Diet energy drink.
Dinner: Spaghetti Bologna's. 2x Cups of milo with sugar.
Snacks: None.
Exercise: 30 mins Just Dance. [started feeling sick so i couldn't finish it.]
Calories: 1705 out of 2000. 21% of the calories are from fat, 30% from protein, 49% from carbs.

Meh

2011-06-16T16:09:00.000-07:00

I've been really tired this week.There's nothing wrong with me. Just tired and cranky. I went a couple of days without my bi-polar medication [stupid idea] because i ran out and didn't have the money to get another script filled. If i knew it would take so long to balance again, i would have found the money!
The day before yesterday was such an epic fail, diet wise! I had twice my calorie limit with no exercise. Worse eating day in a long time!
Yesterday was better, but the fat is still up.
Here's what i ate:
Breakfast: 2x buttered wholemeal toast with fried mushrooms. Cup of skinny tea
Lunch: Seedy bun with cheese & salad. Diet energy drink.
Dinner: 2x fish cakes, 4 cocktail fish pieces and about 8 chicken nuggets. Diet energy drink
Snacks: 2x marshmallow biscuit things from the bakery. Cheese sandwich [grainy bread]
Exercise: 40 mins Just Dance.
Calories:1643 out of 2000. 34% of the calories are from fat, 20% from protein, 46% from carbs.

2011-06-14T03:48:00.000-07:00

The perfect Weight Loss kit.
Today was a bit blah. I still feel really down over yesterdays results, but i won't let it beat me. I know i was/am doing all the right things, so i'll just keep going, and hope it's my scales that have in fact failed. Because honestly, i can't do any more than i'm doing. I can tweak it, sure. But overall, i say i'm doing what i can at this stage.

Not feeling the motivation, but doing the do anyway.
Here's what i ate:
Breakfast: Oats with skim milk and sultanas. Skinny tea.
Lunch: Salad sandwich with white bread [yuck!] and a diet energy drink.
Dinner: [Chinese] honey chicken. Glass of skim milk.
Snacks: 50g of walnuts.
Exercise: 60 minute walk.
Calories: 1942 out of 2000. 45% of the calories are from fat [Ouch!], 19% from protein, 36% from carbs.

Weighing in

2011-06-12T19:19:00.000-07:00

I lay in bed this morning deciding weather to weigh myself or not. I was thinking stuff like, "What if i've only lost a kilo? Will i be devastated and get depressed?" and "What if i've got to 169 kilos - my first goal and best case scenario? Will i get complacent and slacken off?" I had to promise myself that no matter what the scale said i'd lost, i'd keep up my awesome efforts just the same as i have this past month.
So i got on the scale, all excitedly, and to my absolute shock, it said i'd gained 4 kilos! [my scales are accurate]
I just don't know what to think or feel. I've been absolutely honest about my food intake, portions and exercise. There were days where i miscalculated calories, but there were also days where i ate way under my calorie limit. I should have lost something, anything.
I've been sooooo good. I've been soooo proud of myself. I've been feeling great, health wise. Although funnily enough, after weighing myself, i suddenly got a sore back and could feel that extra chin i thought i'd lost, like it was all a wishful illusion.
I just don't know what to think other than that i feel absolutely defeated!

Breakfast: Oats with skim milk & sultanas. Skinny tea.
Lunch: Left ever Spaghetti Bologna's with capsicum and mushrooms added. A banana smoothie made with a banana, Nestle diet chocolate mousse and skim milk.
Dinner: A multi grain bread bun with Vegemite and low fat margarine.
Snacks: Another multi grain bread bun with Vegemite and low fat margarine.
Exercise: Nil
Calories:1659 out of 2000 .27% of the calories are from fat, 24% from protein, 49% from carbs.

I didn't feel very well today, or maybe i was just sulking.

Progess Tastes Awesome!

2011-06-12T02:54:00.000-07:00

Today was a busy day. I woke up late this morning, and couldn't have a decent breakfast. I grabbed a muesli bar on the way outta the house and was starving 15 mins later.
I was in charge of the creche room at church this morning. Apparently we have to arrange an activity for the kids, as opposed to sitting in the corner, Facebooking on my iPhone and letting the kids eat balloons lol I didn't know i had to do that, so they just had to eat balloons lol

Bananas are REALLY expensive in Australia at the moment. Because of the floods, and then hurricane in QLD earlier this year. And Our bananas are grown in QLD so what's available is pretty crumby. Bananas are the only regular fruit i eat, so you might imagine i'm quite put out by the price hike.
Today they were a whole dollar cheaper, so a treated myself and got one. They are little but they are good :o)

I took Jason, DJ and Jason's friend Josh [pictured] to a little park today. I hogged the swing, much to their distaste lol

Then we went to a friends place for a BBQ lunch. There were lots of goodies, but i was strong [despite being starving from that stink'in muesli bar] and ate mostly salad stuff. I ate some rice salad that i wouldn't normally even think to eat. A little bit of potato bake and curried potato. And the rest was 2x snags and some pear salad. [I took the pic half way through the meal, when i remembered.] Then i got a bit of that evil lettuce stuck in my throat and threw up! It was stuck half way down my throat and half still in my mouth. It was horrible.

Then there was dessert. A table of yummies that i tried supper hard to resist. Cake, cookies and Roses chocolates.

I lasted a good hour before i decided to have a bit of orange & poppy seed cake. It was dry but yummy. I was pleased that i didn't cave in to the Roses chocolates. One of those and the whole bowl would have been mine!!

Then i dropped the boys off and picked Rose up from work. She had a plate of leftover goodies and so i ended up indulging in a raspberry friand.

Today was a bit of a big food day. I'm surprised at the fact that i wanted to choose the better options, rather than mourning for the foods i 'couldn't' have. I like that :o)

So here's what i ate:

Breakfast: Honeycomb & nut Muesli bar. full fat cappuccino

Lunch: 2x snags, Some pear salad, potato bake, curried potato, rice salad & a diet energy drink.

Dinner: 3x snags, 3 baked potatoes + peas.

Snacks: Bit of orange and poppy seed cake. Raspberry friand

Exercise: 20 min walk.

Calories: 1967 out of 2000. 41% of the calories are from fat, 16% from protein, 44% from carbs. [Just can't get that Protein up!]

Last Minute Diary

2011-06-11T07:48:00.000-07:00

Can't talk long. It's nearly 1am and i neeeeeeed to go to bed [we had friends over for dinner]
Breakfast: Oats with skim milk & sultanas.
Lunch: 2x sml egg and lettuce wraps [one with low fat mayo]. Mushrooms on wholemeal toast + diet energy drink.
Dinner: Meatballs and pasta with garlic bread + a bottle of Pink wine.
Snacks: one chocolate cookie.
Exercise: 40 mins Just Dance
Calories: 1984 out of 2000. 26% of the calories are from fat, 18% from protein, 51% from carbs and 5% from alcohol.

Going to bed now ZzzzzzzzzZZzZZzzzzz

Stretchy Pants

2011-06-09T22:45:00.000-07:00

Last night i realised that i've been measuring portions wrong and some things have even been out by up to 300 calories. OHHHH THE SHAAAAME OF IT AAAAAAALL!!! So here i was thinking that i was eating awesomely for my 2000 calorie allowance, and well, i have been eating too well. I'm kinda glad i haven't been weighing myself now. Imagine THAT punch in the guts! I'd be thinking i was doing all the right things, and probably still gaining weight. I don't know that, but now i'm too scared to weigh myself on Monday - my next weigh in day.
Yet, because i haven't weighed myself, so i don't know if there's anything to be depressed about or not, i can swing straight into fixing things without falling off the wagon first. That feels pretty neat.
I watched an E! special today called Top Celebrity Body Bounce Backs [or something] and it seems that more protein is the key. So while trying to balance fat, protein and carbs, i think protein should be the highest number. I'll try for that and see how i go.
I started 'playing' the Biggest Loser Wii game today. And that said, at my weight, that i should be eating 3000+ calories. Gee, i dunno who to believe! I'll stick with the lower amount. It's safer ;o)
Here's what i ate today:
Breakfast: Honey Weets and skim milk.
Lunch: Quesidella made with Avocado [a major mis-calculation villain], low fat cheese and tomato + diet energy drink.
Dinner: Scotch egg, Mashed potato, pumpkin, broccoli and peas. Diet energy drink. Bottle of Pink wine [another mis-calculation villain]
Snacks: Nil
Exercise: 40 mins Just Dance
Calories: 1408 out of 2000. 40% of the calories are from fat, 16% from protein, 38% from carbs and 7% from alcohol. [so much for getting that protein up lol]

Pivit Points

2011-06-09T00:03:00.000-07:00

Didn't do yesterdays food diary coz of (insert excuse here) and i was flat out all day today so i just figured it was too bad. It involved pizza, Jim Beam & no exercise anyway. That crap food is creeping back in. Better rein it back in.
Today i got my hair cut first thing. Then i went to our local mall to sell raffle tickets on behalf of our school for 3 hours. I was sitting outside a take away shop and it smelt lovely. At lunch, i went in there and thought the healthiest thing on the menu would be a kebab? It was made with a wrap, chicken, salad and BBQ sauce. I haven't had one before and i never will again. It was awful! I only had a few mouthfuls and took the rest home for my dogs.
Daniel is really grizzly coz of his teeth, so i didn't get any time when i got home, to eat, until after 4pm [running around at the supermarket, picking kids up from school, Getting Rose to her school dance, getting booked for speeding etc. Y'know, general stuff]
Now it's after 8pm and i'm buggered.
Here's what i ate:
Breakfast: Honey weets & skim milk.
Lunch: A Quesidella made of avocado, ham [not low fat], tomato, and low fat cheese. Low carb energy drink.
Dinner: Some cheetos [I was full from that Quesidella]
Snacks: A Cadbury Creme egg. Couple of mouthfuls of that kebab thing.
Exercise: Nope
Calories: About 1752 out of 2000. 45% of the calories are from fat, 24% from protein, 31% from carbs.

So-So

2011-06-07T15:57:00.000-07:00

I didn't get here last night because i went to bed early.
Yesterday started out great then kinda half-hearetdly fell in the crapper.
I'm making a scrapbook about my weight loss journey. I've been making occasional pages over the last few years. But i'm going to step it up and scrap everything awesome that i feel. And instead of keeping the pages in a folder like i have been, put them in a scrapbook so i can actually look at them lol
I ate pretty well all day. Then after dinner i had the munchies really bad and ate even though i knew i had no calories left :o/
Here's what i ate:
Breakfast: Honey Weets + skim milk
Lunch: Left over Spag bol, 2x choc chip cookies + diet energy drink.
Dinner: 7 fish fingers [sticks] 2x Skinny cow toffee sundaes, a bowl of Honey weets with skim milk and a bottle of wine
Snacks: Nil
Exercise: 20-30 min walk up a steep hill that nearly killed me!
Calories: 2139 out of 2000.18% of the calories are from fat, 15% from protein, 48% from carbs and 19% from alcohol..

Just Cruis'in..

2011-06-06T03:46:00.000-07:00

Today was good too. Feeling energetic and productive.
I decided today that i'm tired of my dress sense. I always wear black t-shirts and black bike pants [So i don't have to make a choice each morning] and i've dressed like this for so long that i feel like a fish outta water in anything else [Heaven forbid, i should actually put a skirt on!!] and uncomfortable - out of my comfort zone. But i'm finally feeling like i need to shed the clothing habit and evolve.
Today during Just Dance, i beat my personal best again. That felt awesome!
Here's what i ate:
Breakfast: Honey weets with skim milk.
Lunch: A Quesidella made up of rye wraps, lean ham, low fat cheese, tomato and baby spinach. Diet energy drink.
Dinner: low fat sausage and cheesy pasta bake thingy. Nestle diet tropical cheesecake + a Diet energy drink.
Snacks: Skinny coffee with 5 choc chip cookies.
Exercise: 40 mins Just Dance
Calories: 1690 out of 2000. 23% of the calories are from fat, 28% from protein, 49% from carbs

On the home front, Daniels first tooth broke through today. Yaaaay!

[He's so cheeky!]

Getting Easier

2011-06-05T04:30:00.000-07:00

Today i feel great. I don't know why it's different, but i feel healthier and fitter overall. I'm almost tempted to weigh myself. But i'm not gonna!
Rose started a new, second job today, at my fav local coffee shop, the Amarco Bakehouse [Man this woman can cook good food!]. So after church, DJ and i walked there to see how Rose was going. She

fit right in there and i'm pleased she's found somewhere to work with a nice bunch of people :o) But then i was horrified to find that she would be getting more money than i do at my seasonal job [packing Christmas hampers]where i slog my guts out for 8 hours a day [with one 1/2 break] for $80 [after tax] for washing dishes and serving coffee. Gees that stuck in my craw! But i am happy for her :o)

It was mine and DJ's first lunch outing together. Dj threw food around and made a lot of noise, and generaly had a good time lol Then we walked home and both had a Nana nap.

Here's what i ate:

Breakfast: Honey weets and skim milk.

Lunch: 2x melts [Pineapple, cheese, bacon, avocado and chicken] Skinny mugaccino, and a piece of fudge cake.

Dinner: 3 low fat sausages, mashed spud, broccoli and a corn cob.

Snacks: Diet energy drink and a mint slice biscuit

Exercise: 30 min walk

Calories: 1873 out of 2000 calories and have 127. 44% of the calories are from fat, 20% from protein, 36% from carbs.

Momentary Lapse Of Diet

2011-06-04T02:55:00.000-07:00

I had a couple of days down time but i'm back and feeling much better. Still got a bit of a runny nose, but it's all good. I didn't exercise and i had one day where i ate waaaay too many chocolates out of a fund raising chocolate box that Rose bought home :o/
Here's what i ate today:
Breakfast: 2x bowls of honey weets and skim milk.
Lunch: a Quesidellas [2x rye wraps with lean ham, tomato and low fat cheese] and a diet energy drink.
Dinner: McCain frozen dinner [beef Florentine] and an old toffee Skinny Cow sundae.
Snacks: Cup of Milo and a glass of Orange & mango juice.
Exercise: 40 mins Just Dance
Calories: 1434 out of 2000. 19% of the calories are from fat, 32% from protein, 49% from carbs. [why can't i get that to balance right!]
Edit: then i had a banana before bed. That changed the calorie intake to 1569. 18% from fat, 30% from protein & 52% from carbs.

Blaaaaah

2011-06-01T06:29:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning feeling pretty darn shitty. If i hadn't promised my oldest daughter, Alix, that i'd take Daniel to see her [I take him to see her nearly every week, but this week she wanted to show him off to some people]there's no way i woulda even gotten out of bed. Just send in coffee, tetris [on my phone] and a tissue box.
But i got out of bed and went into town, saw Alix, and done the shopping.
By the time i got home, i was a snotty, sweaty, wheezy and tired mess! exercise was definately NOT on the cards!
I ate badly too. Well, i ate two bad things. Here's what i ate:
Breakfast: 2x toasted melts [chicken, avocado, bacon, pineapple and cheese on toast] and a skinny capacinno.
Lunch: Seared chicken ceaser wrap and some popcorn chicken [from KFC] + a low carb energy drink.
I felt sick after that popcorn chicken, so i didn't have dinner as such. Then watching a movie with Jason i had....
Dipper [Dinner/Supper]: Some lite microwave popcorn, and then my greedy fingers stole some of Jasons Doritos [They are soooo freakin calorie intensive!]
Snacks: None
Exercise: None.
Calories: 2625 out of 2000. 43% of the calories are from fat, 21% from protein, 36% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

It would have been an awesome number without that Popcorn chicken or Doritos. Together they were just under 1200 calories >:o/

2 Lots Of Exercise - Look Out Now!

2011-05-31T05:01:00.000-07:00

Today i was sick too. But it's all good coz i can still function. DJ got over tired and didn't sleep for 12 hours! He woke up at 7am and went to sleep just after 7pm. Gee it was a long day!
I decided to go for a walk, thinking it was the better alternative because i could plod along at my own pace. Ohhhh how wrong i was! Quarter the way around, i was stuffed [Only coz i'm sick] and wondering what the heck i was doing! I thought about calling John to come get me, and then kept thinking, "Just a bit further, just a bit further..." Until i got home. [Yay for not quitting!]
My back isn't hurting today. That means i've lost weight. I dunno how much but that doesn't matter. What matters is my back doesn't hurt :o)
Here's what i ate:
Breakfast: Honey Weets with milk.
Lunch: Quesidella made from avocado, lean ham, tomato and low fat cheese. Low carb energy drink.
Dinner: Honey chicken & sticky date pudding with custard + about 6 prawn crackers.
Snacks: None
Exercise: 45 min walk & 40 mins Just Dance.
Calories: 1803 out of 2000. 46% of the calories are from fat, 17% from protein, 37% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

Dinner was Chinese and i couldn't find honey chicken [or anything close] in the Calorie King data base. So i added 2x KFC chicken breasts and some honey instead to my dinner section.

After coming back from my walk, Rose challenged me to a Just Dance off. I couldn't refuse that [any excuse for a duel!] and we ended up in a tie after ten songs. Woot!
Here we are during Katy Perrys "Hot & cold". Don't mind the mess ;o)

Boo Yea!

2011-05-30T05:11:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning all stuffed up with snot trails down my face. Very gross! [feel sick now?] And after wondering how i'm going to look after DJ while feeling like this, i thought of how i'm going to exercise. Then i was proud of myself for prioritising the exercise :o)
I didn't think i'd be able to do the Just Dance. I thought i'd have to walk instead. But the weather was crappy. So i did the Just Dance anyway, and was really impressed to beat my personal best, even while feeling sick! That rocks!

I decided not to weigh myself weekly. The thing that made up my mind was yesterdays shitty calorie over usage. A bad number on the scale determines my motivation for the following week. And if the day before weigh in was bad, the number won't be good. So i figure that seen as my motivation is high right now, i'll use it to my advantage and weigh myself monthly [in 3 weeks]

Here's what i ate today:
Breakfast: Bowl of Honey Weets and skim milk + a skinny coffee.
Lunch: A ham and salad wrap + a low carb energy drink.
Dinner: Mince & pasta, a Bowl of honey weets with skim milk [for desert] + 2 glasses of wine.
Snacks: A banana smoothie [Banana, skim milk, teaspoon of milo]
Exercise: 40 mins Just Dance
Calories: 1441 out of 2000. 17% of the calories are from fat, 19% from protein, 58% from carbs and 6% from alcohol.

I can log into my own Blogger account. But Blogger wont let me comment on anyone elses blogs. How very odd...

Hhhmmmmm Again.

2011-05-29T05:35:00.000-07:00

Today was a bit [lot] of a blowout! I thought it was going ok. I had a few drinks, and i knew that would take me over though. It was the 'healthy' stuff that blew me away!
Breakfast: Bowl of honey weets with skim milk + a skinny coffee.
Lunch: 7 buttered tiny dinner bread rolls [leftover from last nights catering job] + 2 x orange & Mango juice.
Dinner: Corned beef, mashed spud & peas. 4x Black Jim Beam and cokes.
Snacks: 200g bag of dried pineapple. full fat cappuccino.
Exercise: Nil
Calories: 3464 out of 2000. 14% of the calories are from fat, 13% from protein, 58% from carbs and 15% from alcohol.

Tomorrow is weigh in day. Better decide now weather i want to weigh in once a week or once a month.

Better Rein Those Straggler Calories In!

2011-05-28T06:30:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i was super busy and didn't get to the computer. Then this morning, i got straight up and off again. I only got home again after 9 tonight so there was no point in doing yesterdays log. It was ok, other than a couple of Cherry Ripes that fell into my mouth!
Today i worked in a little bookshop, then i helped out with a catering job. While there, i was quite good. I snuck a tiny bit of pork crackling, that was surprising not so expensive in calories. I was too busy to nibble anyway.
Here's what i ate today:
Breakfast: Bowl of Honey Weets with skim milk + a skinny coffee.
Lunch: Ham & salad roll. 2 bits of banana bread and a low carb energy drink.
Dinner: roast lamb with roast pumpkin and potato with a bit of pork crackling. A glass of orange & mango juice.
Snacks: Bowl of honey weets with skim milk. A cup of full fat milk.
Exercise: 30 mins walking [to work]
Calories: 2055 out of 2000. 23% of the calories are from fat, 20% from protein, 57% from carbs.

Now i'm stuffed and i'm going to bed :o)

Hhhmmmmm

2011-05-26T03:33:00.000-07:00

Today was better, but not where i'd like it to be. It was a busy day and Daniel was a whiny-bum. I've been looking for a weekend job and i went to a job place today. They told me that, because i'm not receiving unemployment benefits, they can't help me. That sux a bit.
As i said in the last post, i think my eating yesterday has caused me to feel sluggish today, because i've had no "ompf" all day. I tried to exercise but i only got 20 mins in, because Daniel was being so grizzly, i couldn't concentrate and eventually gave up. 20 mins is better than nothing though.
Here's what i ate:
Breakfast: Bowl of honey weets with skim milk, 1 bit of buttered wholemeal toast with Vegemite. Cup of tea.
Lunch: Ham & salad wrap, 2x bits of wholemeal toast with low fat ham & cheese + a low carb energy drink.
Dinner: Crumbed chicken breast, mashed potato, 2x corn cobs and peas [with a bit of gravy]. 3 glasses of wine.
Snacks: Cadbury creme egg [We have heaps left!] and a small bag of dried pineapple.
Exercise: 20 mins of Just Dance.
Calories: 2254 out of 2000. 22% of the calories are from fat, 18% from protein, 55% from carbs and 5% from alcohol.

Hhhmmmmmm

Why?

2011-05-25T18:30:00.000-07:00

I didn't want to blog last night because i was/am embarrassed.
The day started out really crappy and just went on a vigorous downhill run from there! I didn't add it all to Calorie King coz i didn't have all night!
We went to Maccas for breaky and i thought the healthiest thing i could have of the regular menu [rather than McCafe where i usualy go] was a bacon and egg McMuffin. We can see them being cooked after all. Nothing wrong with lean bacon, fried egg, 1 slice of English cheese or a muffin. So i got 2. While eating them, i put them into my calorie database and they came to 700 calories [with my coffee]. So i thought i better be REALLY careful for the rest of the day, and never eat a McMuffin again! [Just stick to the toast and coffee that i usually have at Maccas. Just as nice]
Then, at lunch time, i went to Donut King [EPIC FAIL!!] and got 4 cinnamon donuts. one for me, one for Rose, and one each for the guys' lunch boxes. That's the lie i told myself. I knew as soon as i got to the car, i'd eat them, and call them 'Lunch'. Then i felt crap about that too.
So what did i do next? I came home and ate myself to death with:
A strawberry filled chocolate from the chemist.
4 marshmallow cookie things from the bakery.
A low carb energy drink [Well THAT'S something!]
6 battered cocktail fish pieces and hot chips with tomato sauce and 2 bits of butted bread for dinner.
Then finished it all off with 2 bowls of Honey Weets.
So i must have done an extreme amount of exercise, right? Nope, none :o/
Then when i went to bed, i almost had to use one of those fatty lifts as pictured above.
I felt so bad, embarrassed and humiliated. Why do i do this to myself? WHY?!?
I'm not going to add things to my calorie database until night time now. So if i make a mistake with thinking something is healthy, it won't wreck my day/motivation. Or better still, Check it's calories BEFORE i shove it in my gob!
I'm paying for it today too. Gee i feel sluggish without any proper fuel.
It's over now and i have confessed it and moved on with better intentions. It's all i can do.

Nibble Nibble

2011-05-24T02:59:00.000-07:00

Today was a nibbly day. You know - the kind of day where you just want to pick at stuff? I did very well, considering though.
Rose is home with what i think is glandular fever. She's an absolute mess and i can't get her into the doctor until Thursday, the poor thing. So she's been in bed all day and i've been cleaning up some clutter. Although i think i've made a bigger mess than what i began with, so seen as i'll probably be home with Rose tomorrow instead of going grocery shopping, i'll finish cleaning it up.
Here's what i ate today:
Breakfast: Bowl of Honey Weets with skim milk, a banana smoothie with skim milk [& a teaspoon of Milo for taste] + a cup of skinny tea [no sugar]
Lunch: Fried button mushrooms on 2x buttered wholemeal toast + a low carb energy drink.
Dinner: Sausage [low fat] and pasta bake thingy + a low carb energy drink.
Snacks: 2x honeycomb & nut muesli bars.
Exercise: 40 mins Just Dance
Calories: 1856 out of 2000.
36% of the calories are from fat, 20% from protein, 44% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

Motivation Is Priceless.

2011-05-23T04:47:00.000-07:00

Today was another short one. John has had 2 weeks off and i'm getting used to sleeping in. He goes back to work on Wedensday so i'm in for a tired second half of the week!
I tried Just Dance 2 for Wii today. It has a fitness option that you have to reach each day, if you chose it. Of course i went all gunho and went for the hardest option within that option. And i found that the dance moves on 2 are harder/require more co-ordination. I don't have a lot of co-ordination so i fumbled a fair bit. Hopefully it gets easier.
Here's what i ate today:
Brunch: Fried rice. [Johnny had a go at making it after my failed attempt the other night. This lot was a bigger fail lol] Skinny coffee with 1 sugar.
Dinner: 2 low fat sausages, 2x dry fried eggs and a handful of hot chips [I purposefully ate very little today to accomidate this meal]. Skinny coffee wih 1 sugar
Snacks: 3x chocolate biscuits & a low carb energy drink.
Exercise: 30 mins Just Dance.
Calories: 1481 out of 2000. 40% of the calories are from fat, 19% from protein, 41% from carbs and 0% from alcohol.

Today is weigh in day. I feel weird about this day. Any long time readers would know that i'm always torn about the weigh in. To weigh or not to weigh. If i gain/stall, when i have been good, the world might as well have ended! However, If i lose, it keeps me motivated. I've thought about only weighing in once a month. And i do think that's a good idea. I'll keep thinking about it....
But for this week i've lost 2.4 kilos [5.2lbs] I'm pretty darn happy about that!

Getting Jiggy With It

2011-05-22T01:30:00.000-07:00

Today has been good. I was rostered on this morning to help in Kids church. I always worry when it's my turn, as i have enough of a hard time relating to my own kids, never mind a room full of kids. But it's always ok. We made sock puppets, yay!
After lunch i tried to play on the Wii but it wouldn't load any games. I think it's on it's way out NOOOOOOOO!!! So i took the dog, Buddy for a walk. I've never taken him out before. It's always been Rose who took him Walkies [So she could 'Accidentally' run into friends down at the park]. And man is he a pain! He's good as in he doesn't pull this way and that. But he has to stop to sniff every crumb, rock & pole! But after he realised we were on a mission, he did the do.
Then later in the arvo Jason managed to get the Wii working Woohoo!
Here's what i ate.
Breakfast: 2x poached eggs on buttered toast + Skinny coffee
Lunch: Caesar chicken wrap, Low carb energy drink, and a Nestle caramel coffee.
Dinner: Bowl of Honey Weets with light milk
Snacks: 2x Cadbury creme eggs [Easter is just dragging on and on] + a choc chip cookie + regular coffee.
Exercise: 60min walk + 15 mins on Wii Just Dance
Calories: 1969 out of 2000
Edit
I forgot to add my exercise to the food diary. So i actualy used 1632 calories out of 2000, seen as it is calculated after exercise.

As a side note. Here's Daniel. He turned the big 1 last week. We took him to Pizza Hut for a little party. He was a bit sick and out of sorts, but he loves Pizza [takes after his G-Ma!]He's a good baby. Very strong willed and tries to be independent already. He's not quite walking yet, and he still has no teeth. He's just lovely :o) Check out those eye brows. He'll have to rein them in when he hits puberty, or they'll take over his forehead! lol

Shortest Day Ever

2011-05-21T05:27:00.000-07:00

Today i had a mega sleep in and it was gooooood! Then i did a lot of nothing. Quite an unproductive day indeed.

Here's what i ate:
Breakfast: Wheat & rye wrap with light peanut butter & banana + skinny coffee.
Lunch: 2x little home made pies + a low carb energy drink.
Dinner: 3 crumbed chicken breast strips, baked potato, corn cob + peas.
Snacks: None
Exercise: 30 mins of Wii Just Dance.
Calories: 1962 out of 2000

Bit Of Mojo In Today

2011-05-20T21:41:00.000-07:00

I forgot to blog until i was all tucked up in our nice warm bed. There was no chance i was getting up to do it then! lol
Today was pretty good. I went with Jason's school to take part in the tree planting morning. The kids weren't heavy enough to use the hole digger [it looked like a pogo stick] so i got some exercise in doing that for them ;o)
Here's Jason with his first tree, a gum tree.
Then in the afternoon, i took Daniel and Buddy [the dog] to Jason's school early so we could go for a nice walk in the country. Here's Daniel in the pram, being amused by Buddy, stopping every few feet to leave 'secret messages' for other dogs.

And here's what i ate:

Breakfast: A buttered bacon & cheese bun, bowl of Honey Weets + a skinny coffee

Lunch: 2x low fat home made little pies + a low carb energy drink

Dinner: home made special fried rice that was freakin awful! Snack size bag of Doritos [50g]

Snacks: 2x little Cadbury creme eggs.

Exercise: 40min walk.

Calories used: 1977 out of 2000

Those eggs and Doritos cost over 600 calories. I'm glad i didn't eat a bigger bag of Doritos!

Pretty good day overall :o)

EPIC FAIL

2011-05-19T06:09:00.000-07:00

Ye gads! Today was worse than yesterday!

Breakfast: Ham & salad wrap + skinny coffee.
Lunch: 2x toast melts [chicken, avocado, bacon, pineapple + cheese on toast] Bit of fudge slice + 2 x skinny cappacinos.
Dinner: 3x little, lean, home made beef pies. Mashed potato + peas. A low carb energy drink.
Snacks: 4 x Wild turkey & colas
Exercise: None.
Calories: 3249 :o/

Awwww maaaaan! Those Wild Turkeys were REALLY expensive [in calorie currancy]
Oh well. Tomorrow is another day!
I'm going with Jason to a school tree planting day. Hopefully i'll get plenty of exercise there. I'll offer to dig all the holes lol

If Only I'd Walked 50 Miles!

2011-05-18T05:27:00.000-07:00

Today was a bit naughty. Feel free to judge me lol
I went outta town to do the grocery shopping etc with my daughter, Rose. [Just having some girly time] I didn't get any exercise in, but we did spend all day walking around. If i am going to eat badly on any day, it will be shopping day [usually always Wednesday]

Breakfast: 2x buttered iced finger buns & a skinny coffee.
Lunch: Seared chicken Caesar wrap & low carb energy drink.
Dinner: 3 bowls of Honey Weets in lite milk & skinny coffee.
Exercise: None really.
i used 2705 calories today, instead of 2000 [OUCH!] but only 13% was from fat o_o

Those 3 bowls are pretty embarrassing , but they weren't eaten all together if that makes it sound better? And i thought those things were relatively safe, calorie wise, but apparently not.
I better be well behaved tomorrow!

Accountability

2011-05-16T18:02:00.000-07:00

Ok, here i am to be accountable every day for my healthy/unhealthy choices (Last week we had parties, so i stalled ;o)
If i've learnt one thing, it's that i NEED you people!

Here's what i ate today:
Breakfast: Bowl of Crunchy Nut cereal with lite milk.
Skinny coffee + 1 sugar.
Lunch: 2X toast melts [Chicken, bacon, avacado, pineapple & cheese on toast] Bit of chocolate fudge slice [to DIE for!] Low carb energy drink.
Dinner: 4x fish fingers, 2 scrambled eggs + 2x buttered wholemeal toast
Snacks: Some cheese things, like Cheetos
Exercise: 30 mins of the Wii game, Just Dance. 45min walk
I've used 1805 of my 2000 calories

I didn't get here yesterday, but here's what i ate:

Breakfast: Big bowl of Crunchy Nut cereal with skim milk
Lunch: Pasta/sausage thing & a low carb energy drink
Dinner: more of that pasta/sausage thing.
Snacks: 3X vanilla type biscuits + a Mint slice biscuit.
Exercise: 30 mins of the Wii game, Just Dance.
I had 1821 of my allotted 2000 calories

F.A.T

2011-05-10T04:49:00.000-07:00

Oh my goodness, this week i am F.A.T! I did alright for most of the week, and then had a MASSIVE two day blow out on Fri-Sat. You shoulda seen the crap i ate!

I'm so sick of myself right now. I just balance those scales and then a binge sets me waaaay back. Each week it tips one way or the other. But i average on 175 kilos [About 400lbs].

I need to overhaul my life in order to overhaul my habits. My life is good and there's nothing i'd want to change. But my yo-yo habits are not good and they really need to change. I need a complete life change plan. Where to start with that?

I had to give up on the gym, because i couldn't afford it. I felt like i was left in the lurch a bit there, but it couldn't be helped. This Just Dance is awesome, but i need to do it every day to see the benefits.

I Promised myself i'd use these cooler months to get a good chunk of fat off. It's now the middle of the second Autumn month, so i better pull my finger out!

The first point of call will be that i will again blog daily. I always feel motivation after i've vented here. When i stopped doing my daily updates, it was because i was finding it hard to find the time to do it. But that was when DJ was a little baby. I have time now, so i will.

Just Dance...At The Right Time.

2011-05-03T20:28:00.000-07:00

I'm back :o)

Yes i did have withdrawals, serious withdrawals! I could still FaceBook from my phone [yaaaay] so that's something at least!

Did everyone get through Easter ok? I didn't. Too many hot crossed buns. But i still managed to drop 1.5 kilos for April [3.3lb]. I think it's mostly because of a Wii game i've started 'playing' called Just Dance, where you basically learn the dance moves to popular songs. It doesn't really matter if you can't keep up. It's heaps of fun and doesn't even feel like exercise! A big thanks to Anne from Lose2Live for putting me onto it . I LOVE IT! :o)

The only downfall is, Daniel can hear when it's on and he recognises the songs. He knows that when he hears those songs that i'm just on the other side of his bedroom wall and he starts crying for attention. So the only time i can really do it is when he's just gone to sleep. Cluey little turd! lol

AWOL

2011-04-22T21:56:00.000-07:00

Hey :o)
I am not running off and hiding behind my flabby bits. We have lost our phone line [hence internet] and it won't be back for a few weeks. I only just thought to borrow a freinds computer and blog that lol

Will be back!

Give The Baby A Bottle!

2011-03-20T19:01:00.000-07:00

I am beginning to think that there are unseen forces going out of their way to prevent me from making any attempt to get healthy.
First it was that sunburn [i'm still peeling] and this week everyone in my house except Rose has a crap head cold. John was the worst. He went down like a ton of bricks! I have been crappy, but i can still look after everyone else. Exercise isn't happening...it's just not. I snuck a peek and i lost 1/2 a kilo this week [about a pound] and i'd say that's only coz i'm sick. I have zero energy!
I'm starting to dread reporting here because all i seem to do is whine. I can only hope that at the end of this crap spell, i turn into weight loss Wonder woman!! I'm putting together an attack plan anyway.
If you're still with me, Yay! :o)

I looked into those Rapid Loss weight loss pills advertised on tele. You take one before a meal and it swells up to fill half your stomach so you can't eat as much. [This is the company, but it's a tablet, not a shake. I couldn't find the tablet link]
You can buy them from Priceline [in Australia] for $40 for 18 tablets and you have one with every meal...i don't think so. I think you could drink a litre of water before each meal and get the same effect- for free - and it's 100% natural! [Don't have to worry about how that half a stomach sized blob is going to get out, 3 times a day either!]

Here's Daniel -10 months old now. Isn't he gorgeous?!?

2011-03-14T20:33:00.000-07:00

That sunburn stopped hurting after 8 days. I'm on my third round of peel now. I am soooo never going without suncream ANYWHERE again!
So this week has been pretty mundane really. I haven't stuck to my program exactly. I found that the pool exercises Jodee [fitness instructor] gave me, doesn't take up much time. So i added my own stuff to it that i learned from aqua aerobics. I'll just keep doing that. It's costs $5.60 for me to get in the pool just for a swim, so i'll do whatever i have to to stretch the time out!
Since i got back from our holiday [2 weeks], i've lost 1.5 kilos [3.3lbs] Coolies.
I plan to not weigh myself for another month [13 April] but i might sneak.

Till next week...

Sunburn Is NOT Cool!

2011-03-03T21:58:00.000-08:00

It's not Monday and i'm slack.
We had a great holiday, but i came back with sunburn on the back of my legs SO BAD that it's over a week later and it STILL kills! It's mostly just in that crease in the leg bend, so every time i bend or straighten my legs, the blisters get grosser :o/
I was so vigilant to keep us protected, but i just never thought of legs - never have. I spent an hour, belly down on this tube ride. I loved that ride. It was so relaxing [hence i was on it for an hour] but boy did i pay! By 6pm that night i was writhing in agony! I found out later that the hospital ER can give an anaesthetic cream just for bad sunburn. Hopefully i never have to remember that.

So, most of my week has been spent laying or sitting down with straight legs. Boring as heck.
I did aqua on Wednesday night because it's in water and it felt nice. But i probably shouldn't have, for hygiene reasons. I didn't even think of that til i was already in the pool. Dumb aye?
I can't have a shower over room temp [coz i can't stand ANY heat on my legs] so i'm not exercising because that encourages showering.
This week is just a 'woe is me' week. But here is the new plan...

Monday: Gym -Laps in the water with a flutter board.
Tuesday: Walking
Wednesday: Gym - Aqua Aerobics with a series of reps beforehand [in the pool]
Thursday: Walking
Friday: Gym - Incline treadmill and a step machine.
Sat & Sun: Lots of incidental exercising.

That will be a nice mixture of exercise until i get fitter, thinner and more able.
I have a food diary that i have to give the trainer each week too.

Well that's it for now. The boy has been awake since lunchtime and it's now 6pm. He's fighting it and i need to go read him his rites! lol

Operation Flab Fight

2011-02-20T15:46:00.000-08:00

After much thought, i decided to ditch my "I don't need no stink'in gym!" attitude and i went to see a fitness instructor. I mainly don't like gyms because:
1. I can't afford it. We have a tight budget.
2. There's 2 super buff guys that go to our only gym and they make it obvious that fatties disgust them.
3. I want to just up and exercise when i have spare time, not a scheduled thing.
4. I don't believe you need all that equipment to lose weight.

But i need steady weight loss to stay motivated and my weight loss not only trickled, but then just stopped. When i'm walking an hour a day and eating lots of salad, that kills my motivation levels! So, needless to say, i started slipping backwards. Drank a bit more booze, had a burger at Maccas instead of a salad [Sorry, i've been instructed to call it Mickey D's, instead of Maccas lol] and drank less water, Skipped my walkies here and there.

Now i've put my scales away until March 13, and i had gained weight this week. I can feel it in my lower back when i gain any amount of weight.
But it's ok. I saw the trainer on Friday and told her that i desperately don't want to slip back. I need this!
So she gave me some great advice [i'll share tid-bits she tells me here, and i won't even charge you lol] and worked out a program for me, inside and outside the gym, that should work wonders.
But that'll start next week.
The kids and i are going away this week. Since Daniel came to live with us, it's kinda been all about him whenever we plan stuff. So this is a holiday treat just for them. We are going to the beach and a water theme park I plan on getting some great exercise in with beach walking and bush walks etc. I've also told the kids that we are packing lunches/dinners wherever possible to save money [and calories]
Can't wait to go!
And can't wait to get back and start the new program too!

Change Of Game Plan

2011-02-13T21:40:00.000-08:00

This week has been a bit of a downward spiral. After working my ass off last week and actually gaining .5 of a kilo, i thought "How very rude!" and even stated on my blog post that i wouldn't let the scales judge me.
But i did and i really let it get to me. I didn't weigh myself this morning, because i know i've gained weight and my motivation level is low and very fickle already, so i fear that knowing just how much i've gained will just make it worse. I'm all for just getting the number out of the way and starting fresh, but not this time. I've decided not to weigh myself at all, for at least a month. That's right, No more weekly weigh-ins.

I'll just do my best to be healthy and the scales will eventually move.

So i started this morning off with a nice hilly walk [yea i know Mick, a slight incline]
I parked at our town look out point, and walked down this road...
Looks nice aye? Here i was at the end, looking back.....

Here i was, with my knees freakin dying, trying to get back up the hill! [See the car at the top? It seemed to take a lifetime to get closer!]

Then i sat at the top, in the shade, drinking water, and overlooked the town [which i wasn't thoughtful enough to get a photo of, sorry]

So, i will not weigh myself for at least a month, and i plan to kick ass in that time!

I was going to see a personal trainer this morning, at the gym. But i got the appointments muddled up and i'm waiting for her to call me back :o)

The Scales Are Not Thy Judge!

2011-02-06T19:08:00.000-08:00

This week was freakin awesome!
I've adopted the attitude of walking as a given. No room for excuses, just do it because it's important. I walk around 8:30 each night because it's cooled down a bit by then. I failed at reaching my 240 minute goal this week, but i don't feel bad about it, because one night i done water aerobics instead [i'm going to be doing that every Wednesday night from now on] and one night, i was at the pool with the kids and AFTER a few hours of horsing around, i decided to have a go at doing some laps. All that walking has been getting me fitter and i could play with the kids so much easier.I haven't been able to swim for years coz i'm so unfit. But i felt great so i gave it a go, and it was a lot easier, so i done 10 laps. Not much to some people, but that's a lot for me. I couldn't swim freestyle because i need to be able to breathe a lot, but i did back stroke :o)

My scales haven't moved very much. In fact they've been fluctuating all week, around half a kilo either way, what i weighed last week. This morning i weighed 173 kilos [381.4lbs]

So with my food being the same [except drinking more water] and not drinking booze or energy drinks, and exercising heaps more, the scales don't co-operate. Doesn't sound very fair does it? So last night i drank, and the needle STILL didn't budge...hhmmmmm.

I like to weigh myself every day as a learning thing, getting to know my body. As soon as i get start getting down about not losing, i stop it and only weigh once a week. But this week it's been every day. I'm very surprised that i haven't lost, but it's not unmotivating me so we'll just see what happens. I can't use my clothes as a guide because i mostly wear stretchy material that shrinks back to shape when i've washed it. [DOH!]

I'm feeling fitter and feeling really good. That's the main thing, and i'm trying to use that as a motivator instead of the numbers.

Daily walking is a given, and the number doesn't mean squat in comparison to feeling fitter and healthier [for now] - Sounds good to me :o)

Steaming Sea Lions Batman!

2011-01-31T12:23:00.000-08:00

I was really good this week. I ate mostly well, i walked for 230 out of my planned 240 minutes and i drank heaps of water.
I weighed myself every day [i find that motivating] and stayed the same weight all week, which was really weird.
Then when i weighed myself yesterday, i'd dropped a kilo over night [and it wasn't an 'eventful' night, before you ask lol] and that's just over 2 of that ghastly picture above!

This week I'm cutting out the energy drinks. They are around 250 cals a can and i have 1-2 a day [although i'd drink them all day if i could]. I don't know how much effect that will have on my weight loss efforts, but it's worth a go.
This is my second day without one, and i didn't realise just how much my body had begun to rely on them. By 2pm yesterday, i had zero energy, even in my brain, and i feel as though my veins have bled dry. Isn't that odd? I've never needed energy like i do today!!!
School went back yesterday after the summer break. So i picked a bad time to go without, coz now we are trying to get back into a routine. Oh well.

It's been so hot [35 degrees Celsius average] and our days have mostly been spent, held up inside with the curtains closed and fans on full, while we lull around like sea lions. Not a very productive life for weight loss lol Then i go walkies at about 8:30pm when it's still hottish, but at least the sun and flies are gone.

So i don't really have anything else to report for the week.

No wait, one more thing. Last Wednesday Rose and i went through Maccas drive through for a drink and although i really wanted a large choc shake [not that bad, calorie wise] i got water instead. Go me.

The Art Of Walking

2011-01-23T17:09:00.000-08:00

I didn't write an entry last week coz i was depressed and didn't want to. Still not doing too good. Just got stuff going on.
Last week i gained a kilo and this week i can't shake it off. I've been walking and eating ok. But not walking and eating ok enough, apparently.
I started reading a book last night called 'Walk Off Weight' [an 8 week food and exercise plan] by Andrew Cate. [ABC books] The book is really simple and straight to the point [what i need] and he talks about a common sense approach to walking for weight loss results. I've read one chapter so far - the different types of walking. My initial thought was, there's slow and fast walking, right? But he talks about walking from moderate walking, water walking, bush walking, weight walking, race walking, pole walking, stair walking and more. And he talked about the benefits of walking surfaces. Like did you know that concrete is 10 times harder than asphalt? I think i'll be walking on the road from now on!
Anyway, it's a great book. Seen as walking is my primary exercise, i look forward to making an art out of it :o)
And maybe shake some booty off faster :o/
I better go. While i'm sitting here typing, Daniel is standing up, holding onto the back of my computer chair, and hollering at me. See...

Update: I've decided to start using Calorie King again. That kept my quite honest where food [and portions] were concerned.

I had my diet/walking buddy. But she seems to have gone off in other directions. She wants to do other stuff, not just walking. And that's ok. The journaling thing seems to have gone out the window too. So i might start adding my daily food here again. I'll think about it...

Boo-Yea!

2011-01-10T21:54:00.000-08:00

My computer has died and until a new one turns up, i have to steal time on Johns PC when he's not looking.

It's been an interesting week. I lost most of the festive weight i gained. I have been super good and lost 4.6 kilos [10.14lbs] Yay me!!

Trying not to snack, so i've been crochetting like a Nana on mission! Here's me doing the do, and in the middle of summer. Is that keen or what?!?

My walking buddy, Nikki, found a cool photo gadget on the Aust Womans Day website. You upload a pic of yourself and put how many kilos you'd like to lose and it shows you roughly how you'd look. So we did 50k less, present size and 20k extra. It was fun. It's nice to have those pics on the fridge rather than a 20yo pic, because it looks achievable. I couldn't put the pib on Blogger, so i took a pic of it to show you.

Check it out :o)

Since new years i haven't eaten any bickies, cake, or lollies as promised. I didn't realise how much i actualy eat that stuff til i went off them.

If i'm at the supermarket and having a bad day. I'd get a chocolate something or bag of M'n'Ms. But now i have to find a bit of fruit instead.

If i want something to eat, but it's too close to dinner, i'd just grab a bickie [or 6] from the bickie jar. Now i have to have a cracker or two.

I just didn't realise how frequently i did that stuff. But the alternatives don't make me feel like i'm missing out. It's amazing how a bag of dried apricots can feel just as good to eat as a bag of M'n'Ms!

I'm still having sugar in my morning coffee and i'm still drinking my daily can of Mother.

Overall, i'm doing pretty good :o)

][-][APPY NEW YEAR!

2011-01-01T18:01:00.000-08:00

Are we all pumped to get healthier this year?

I put on a fair bit of weight during my 2 weeks of 'What the hell' eating, drinking and zero exercise. 7 kilos to be exsact. [18lbs]. I was bad with the eating, but i think the semi-constant drinking over the silly season is the main culprit for that huge number of 'party fat' and most of it actualy went on just over new years. I don't regret any of it though . I did tell myself that if i was going to do it, i wasn't allowing any guilt with it. The only thing i do feel bad about is the fact it doesn't show that i've learnt much about living healthy on a large scale, Silly season or not. Why do us fatties treat Christmas like the last supper?

Oh well, back to the grind.

Shortly, a bunch of friends are going to do the Daniel Diet. It's a diet where you can only eat fruit, veges, legumes, whole grains, seeds, nuts, good oil, water, seasoning, tofu etc. Basically a vegetarian diet, but without sugar [real or artificial] for a certain amount of time. Check the link if you want to know more.
Although i'd like to take part in this, i just like my carbs too much.

But i am vowing to eat a lot better. More greens, less red meat, more water, yadda yadda. And i'm going to try to cut out sugar. If i make it a rule to not eat cake, biscuits, chocolate etc, then i can't get trapped by eating too much of it, can i? I do need sugar in my coffee, but i only have 1-2 cups a day.

And of course, no alcohol. I stopped taking my anti-drinking medication so i could drink during Christmas, and i've started taking it again.

One of my favourite things ever is sleeping. I'm a night owl and i like my lie-ins! I would just sleep and sleep until i need a pee or someone wakes me up. And i can sleep through anything.And when i do wake up, it takes me ages to get going. And as soon as i sit down, i'm ready to sleep again. [that part sucks] I would much rather be a morning person though. Can a person change their biological sleeping clock?I'm going to try . DJ wakes up at 6am for a bottle. John gets up to feed him because John is happily a morning person. But i figure that if i get up to feed him, i can then take him for a walk afterwards. Then the exercise is done, and i'm very awake :o)

I lost 12 kilos last year. And i'm not phoo-phooing that, but i need to do a lot better this year, so i can get closer to my ultimate goal of looking like this...

[oh yay lol]

]V[ERRY CHRISTMAS

2010-12-24T01:27:00.000-08:00

No weigh in till after new years. This past week has been kinda indulgent and i don't see it getting any less calorie filled till after new years! So i'll be back after that.
A loss of 12+ kilos or 27+lbs wasn't bad for the year, but still fell terribly short of my own expectations. 2011 will defiantly be thinner!

So Merry Christmas and a happy new year, peoples! And may we all be fitter and healthier in the new year! [[HUGS]]

Balancing Act

2010-12-15T21:02:00.000-08:00

Well i lost weight this week, but only what i gained last week [i'm grateful for that, especially during the festive season]. So i'm back to 170.3. I swear my scales hate me! lol But when i stand on them and the digital numbers go up and down until they rest on a number, I get excited when i see 169, then disappointed when i see 170, then excited again and so on. It's quite taxing lol
There's an add on tele for a weight loss product called Rapid Loss. It's a pill type thing you take before dinner and it swells in your stomach, causing you to eat less. I like that idea so i'm going to look into it, and if it's a natural product, i think i'll give it a go :o)
Has anyone else tried it? Coz i'd appreciate non-TV-endorsed feedback on it.
Again, i'm really glad i managed to lose weight at this time of year. That's great, and motivating too :o)

Bouncy Bouncy

2010-12-05T19:58:00.000-08:00

Well...no i didn't fair well with the ice-cream...or the kids breakfast cereals come to think of it.
I did quite badly actually...quite indeed!
I started out alright. I had an ice-cream a day, then it got to two a day, then finishing off a box of small ones.
Then, as if that wasn't enough, i got stuck into the coco-pops. I LOVE coco-pops! And i knew if i started on them, i wouldn't stop! I told the kids to eat them first before any of the other cereals. But noooooo they had to leave them there for me to gawk at every time i open the pantry!
I ate any self discipline i had this week, and flushed it away.
I gained 1.3 kilos [2.8lbs]
I didn't exercise much either. 1 x 40 min walk and 2 x half hour aerobics videos
But the ice-creams are gone now, and i've ordered the kids to finish the coco-pops in the morning [or the chooks get them].
How many times do i have to bounce around the 170 kilo mark before i get under it?!? It's driving me nuts!
It's like i get close to my first decent goal of being under 170, and then a part of me rebels and keeps me back on purpose. Like being this weight is safe on some level. I don't understand it. But this week i'm absolutely going to get there. Other than a pre-planned date i have with my husband to eat apple crumble at Hogs Breath Cafe this Wednesday, Anyone who puts me in the path of unnecessary calories will cop it!