Waalaaaa!

Gee, i vanish for a few weeks and Blogger completely changes!! It'll take me another year to work out the new changes lol
Well i haven't gone backwards in the past month, but i have put on 5k [11lbs] of weight . How does that work then? Well the battery died in my scales. It takes a funny battery and our supermarket was out,  they weren't getting any new ones in a hurry, And I couldn't find one anywhere else. So 3 weeks went by with no scales and i figured that probably wasn't a bad thing, being the scale-whore i am!
In the meantime, i completely changed my diet. [stupid thing to do with scales for moderation!] My mouth fell into a large pile of Easter eggs over Easter. Having being so well behaved up until that point, i noticed the full effects of the carbs - always wanting more sugar and it never being enough. So i thought i'd have a go at the Atkins diet as it's tried 'n true and it looks like my cup of tea. I don't want the carb dependency that has dragged me down so many times.
But i wasn't going about the low carb diet as recommended by Atkins, i was doing my own thing and making my own guestimations. What i thought was more protein and less carbs was in fact more protein and just as many carbs. Because i assumed carbs just meant bread, sugar products and white pasta.
Over that period of time i started getting puffed easily. A sure sign of gaining weight, but the colder months are my asthma season so i dismissed it. Then i noticed an extra chin in the mirror one day, but figured it could just be the light [Oops there's a bit of denial!] Then i put a jacket on and the arms were too tight where they hadn't been last month. Then i realised i REALLY better weigh myself! So yesterday i went to my old slimmers club [their scales weigh me exactly a kilo heavier than my scales] and i weighed approx 5 kilos heavier than my last weigh in, making me 174.6 kilos [384.9lbs]
So my very poor judgement and lack of education has cost me dearly.
But you know what? It's ok because it's a learning curve. Whats 5 kilos in the big picture? It's just a bit of a set back and it gives me more ass to kick! ;o)
I won't leave it so long between posts. [if i can figure out how to post this one!]

Where For Art Thou Mojo?

Hey, remember me? I didn't mean to vanish. I just tend to be adding my progress etc on our Bod Squad Face book page. I've been mostly good but i've hit a stand still. All that mojo i had at the beginning of the year seems to have evaporated & i'm back to teetering on the fence. I haven't gained weight though, so that's something while i get my mental act together - mostly the exercise. I did put on 200 grams over Easter, which is pretty good i thought. But as of the last weigh in [yesterday] i was 168.7 kilos [371.9lbs].

I have started eating the occasional low fat sausage. I had cut them right out, even though they are one of the families' staple 'meats' [because they are so versatile], but i'm having them with dinner occasionally. And i've been making our own rissoles/burger patties too. With low fat mince, and adding a lot of vege product* and thinning it out with oats and cous cous. I brown the meat and add that stuff & freeze it. Then when i want to use it, i pull it out and add onion, eggs etc. By the time i've finished with them, there's hardly any meat in them but HEAPS of nutrients that the family cant even see :o)

That's about all i have to report. The usual struggle is head stuff, but i won't give in. I'll NEVER be the weight i was again!
In fact, i'm going to exercise right now!......

*I blend a cocktail of whatever i have: Chickpeas, celery, linseed meal, spinach etc. Stuff the family kick up a fuss about. If they can't see it, it isnt there ;o)

Woot!

Well i finally did it this week. I cracked 169 kilos.[169.9k or 374.6lbs] making my total loss 13 kilos, 28.6lbs this year. I'm so proud of myself as i haven't been here for years! No longer in the 170s feels like a real achievement!
It seems weird. Watching people on TBL crying coz they are that weight, and i'm excited for the same reason lol

The Bod Squad went out for dinner on Wednesday night to a pub bistro. I set a challenge to pick at the menu - a bit here and a bit there - to create the healthiest meal possible. Well the menu was actually pretty bland and a lot of stodge. I think one other lady and myself picked the best meal - Chicken Cesar salad. I was going to ask for less dressing but they only put a drizzle on anyway so i didn't. I also had a coffee instead of a boozy or soft drink. No dessert. It was a lovely evening & We'll definitely do it again!
We didn't have a meeting this week as i hosted a combined garage sale at my house on Saturday & by the end of it i just couldn't be bothered to be honest. I just wanted a Nanna nap.

This week i'm just going to work to pump up my motivation. I've been forgetting a lot of the big picture by focusing so much on getting under 170. I need to refocus on the health reasons rather than the number. Because after all, the number is a side effect of being healthy. Not the other way 'round.

Accountability Day 6

Breakfast: Just Right [type cereal] with skim milk.
Lunch: 2 x rye toast + a boiled egg. Can of Mother energy drink.
Dinner: Crumbed chicken breast, crumbed zucchini, 2 smallish jacket potatoes & garlic beans.
Snacks: ..sigh... snack pack of sultanas, 3 pikelets with low fat marg & jam, 4 x Krispie biscuits, cup of tea with skim milk and some low fat potato chips.
Exercise: 40 mins Just Dance.

Still came in under my calorie allowance :o)

I had to cook sausages, eggs and chips for the family tonight [i cook their meal, then my own]. No big deal in itself, except that its one of my fav 'sometimes' meals, and i was absolutely starving!! It took every bit of me not to give in and have dinner with them! But i didn't - i was good :o)

Accountability Day 5

Breakfast: 2 x slices of rye toast with light smooth peanut butter.
Lunch: 2 x melts made up of 2 x slices of white bread, chicken breast, avocado, bacon, pineapple and cheddar cheese. Hazelnut latte
Dinner: Home made fish & chips. Chips were oven baked and fish was crumbed & dry fried.
Snacks: 3 glasses of Pepsi Max and a friand cake.
Exercise: 15 mins Just Dance. I left it till later at night after a movie. I was the only one up and i thought of something that gave me the creeps and had to stop lol [The sheet scene in Paranormal Activity 3] So i'll have to pick it up first thing in the morning.

Rose was quite happy to continue not speaking to me. I was the one who broke the ice at about 8:30pm tonight. I held her down and moved her lips to make her apologise for yesterday lol

Accountibility Day 4 [A Joke]

Today i ate a lot of lots of little things. My diet would have been ok until tonight, where i got bitchy and ate stuff out of spite towards my daughter. Real mature i know!
I had one of the best days ever today! Just in general, lots of little things from finding the perfect park to scoring lots of bargains to watching old people have an ice cream together like teenagers. Just stuff.
My kids are struggling with boring lunches in thier lunch boxes at the moment. So i searched for new stuffs for them and came up with some good ideas.
After i got home, in such a good mood, My darling daughter, Rose, turned into a mega bitch! She's obviously had a bad day and figured i was the ideal verbal punching bag. I demanded that she not speak to me again unless it was to give me an apology but she hasn't spoken to me since, and that was 5 and a half hours ago! Aye Curumba!
I had bought her some crossaints for her lunches. But about an hour ago i got bitchy and ate them. All 4 with ham and cheese. By number 3 i was getting full, but i knew it was annoying her so i kept going.

I realise this whole post is a gross display in immaturity on both parties. And incredible stupidity on my part. Stupidity that was incredibly high in calories and will repay me by clinging to my hips long after Rose has apologised and we have moved on to another day.

There's no point in me putting my food diary here for today. Let's just call it CRAP.

Accountibility Day 3

Today was super good :o)
Breakfast: 2 x weetbix with Almond milk & sultanas
Lunch: 4 little slices of rye bread with lean ham, tomato & a sprinkle of Parmesan cheese. Glass of Pepsi Max
Dinner: Spaghetti Bologna [lean beef] with a sprinkle of Parmesan cheese. Glass of Pepsi Max [Drinking more and more of that stuff :o/]
Snacks: 4-5 plain Marie biscuits.
Exercise: 40 mins Just Dance.

My week slump had no time to turn into a habit. Once i picked up my healthy living again, i fell into it easily. If i had let my old ways eat me up for any longer, i might not have been so lucky. Falling off the wagon is game of Russian roulette.